Trying to let go...
I'm sitting here listening to Coldplay's "Fix You". This song keeps on making me cry because it really reminds me of my ex-boyfriend. I think it reminds me of him because he used to play it often, and he was always the one to fix things and make me feel better when I was having a bad day.
It is really difficult to let go. We were together for over 5 years. I left him because I wanted to finish college and finally get a degree, and my brother's offer (to help me finish school) required me to move from Nevada to Washington state. I miss my friends, and I do miss having my own place and independance. The thing I miss the most of all is him though. It's just so strange not having him here. I miss having someone to hold onto, and someone just to talk to about anything, no matter how intellectual or stupid of a subject.
I can't get ahold of him because his phone is out of service. I was one of the roomates, and my abrupt departure left him in a financial bind. I guess his cell phone bill will have to wait a little while.
We left on good terms. The weird thing is that the fact we left on good terms is making this so much more difficult for me. I don't have anyone to hate. (Well, there is the hatred of myself for not finishing school when I had the first chance.)
I should be studying or going to sleep. I have a placement test to take tommorrow. Part of me or most of me is feeling that I will end up taking basic English and Math classes again. No worries. I could use the practice and the refresher anyway.
It is really difficult to let go. We were together for over 5 years. I left him because I wanted to finish college and finally get a degree, and my brother's offer (to help me finish school) required me to move from Nevada to Washington state. I miss my friends, and I do miss having my own place and independance. The thing I miss the most of all is him though. It's just so strange not having him here. I miss having someone to hold onto, and someone just to talk to about anything, no matter how intellectual or stupid of a subject.
I can't get ahold of him because his phone is out of service. I was one of the roomates, and my abrupt departure left him in a financial bind. I guess his cell phone bill will have to wait a little while.
We left on good terms. The weird thing is that the fact we left on good terms is making this so much more difficult for me. I don't have anyone to hate. (Well, there is the hatred of myself for not finishing school when I had the first chance.)
I should be studying or going to sleep. I have a placement test to take tommorrow. Part of me or most of me is feeling that I will end up taking basic English and Math classes again. No worries. I could use the practice and the refresher anyway.