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Kei kiang. Come dnd. Suddenly when I see everyone wearing couple wear and stuffs I feel sian. How sad. Having to dress up alone. Hais....
This afternoon 8 of us went to the costume shop. Initially i wasnt really that supportive of that idea. Not only will i have to spend another additional 35 bucks I am gonna look pretty silly in it. Somehow the rest managed to convince me say its once in a year kinda thing and lets just go and have fun. Finally i agreed and went along with them to the shop. The initial idea is for us to find costumes that fits a theme that all 8 of us can follow. After spending roughly an hour in the shop some of them decided to get costumes that fits themselves and not follow the theme anymore.
Upon hearing that i was super sian....wasnt that the initial plans to dress up and look silly together?? WTHH!!! after which the couples decided to dress up in their couple wear. i was like -.- Now i feel so extra...everyone has a couple other than me....i am to dress up alone with no one to tag along with. That was when i decided to not dress up anymore...i give up. When the rest heard that i wasnt going to dress up anymore they just went on saying "aye dress up la...just have fun...all of us dress up lei". By then i was just super sian....i just went forward to take a admiral looking coat and just rented it. Boy do i look so extra...wth
Not long after we were all dressed up and at the DnD. DnD wasnt superby enjoyable either...though we did have some fun and laugh really alot...deep inside i didnt really enjoy myself alot. I cant help but feel really out of place most of the time. Though K's OG gladly accepted me into their OG and tried treating me as one i didnt really feel like i was part of them....just one word "EXTRA"
When the day ended i just cant wait to go home. However my clothes is in J's car....Had to wait for him to get my clothes and yet coz of photo taking and waiting here and there we ended up dragging for a further 45 mins or so there...kaos lor!!!
I am really damn sian today man...i guess the thing that contributed to most of my sianess was that i see my whole table filled with attached personels with me the only one still single...all of them have their partners to get fetch food for them or to fetch food for their partners. I am the only one that just eat my own food. haiss...sometimes i just cant help but feel lonely. really lonely. No one to care for and no one cares for....
I think i should get less involved in hall activities already. Dont always get a good experience from all those activities. I should really behave myself and stop all nonsense and start studying.