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sometimes i crave you so hard, i hate myself for it. sometimes i hate you so much, i hate myself for it. mostly i hate myself for "crushing" over a friend. i was out of the game for so long, that i thought i would be okay with some innocent "platonic" rendezvous. but in turn i just realized that i wasn't as hard as i thought i was. or maybe i just rekindled feelings that i knew have been there for awhile. don't get me wrong, it feels good to finally feel this way again, but i never wanted it to hurt. not that it hurts that bad, i just expect too much out of you. it's not that i want anything to happen out of this, there are just times that i want you to myself. that's so selfish of me, but i owe it to myself to be like that for once.