Thesis
I have decided that i hate doing a thesis. It sucks ass...Royally! I'm trying to make heads or tails of the information in front of me. Trying to decipher what I need to pull out and what I can ignore. Plus I've pulled secondary research and haven't really had a chance to go over it yet. Dr. Wells wants to meet this afternoon to go over what I've got, and I've got nothing right now. I finally figured out why I was having issues though...I can't work off the computer screen. I have to have the papers in front of me, I have to be able to move them around, feel them, highlight and write on them. Just reading from a screen and taking notes was so not working! ugh!
I'm worried about disappointing Dr. Wells too. He's helping me a lot, has me working on my Thesis without being in grad school yet, he's going to have me helping with some research this semester. And I appreciate each and every opportunity that he's presenting, because next semester I'm going to start being is Graduate Assistant as well.
I have confidence issues - deep down I know that I can do it, I know that I'll be able to write this Thesis and make it kick ass. I know that I'll be able to do whatever job is set before me and be able to master it. I know that I have it in me. But I also know that I don't feel like I can most days. I don't feel like I will be able to do what is expected of me. I don't feel as though I'm worthy off all the opportunities being presented to me. That's my internal conflict.
I think, once I get further into this, and really get something started I'll be better, but for right now. I'm still trying to figure out what the frell is the point of a damn Thesis!
I'm worried about disappointing Dr. Wells too. He's helping me a lot, has me working on my Thesis without being in grad school yet, he's going to have me helping with some research this semester. And I appreciate each and every opportunity that he's presenting, because next semester I'm going to start being is Graduate Assistant as well.
I have confidence issues - deep down I know that I can do it, I know that I'll be able to write this Thesis and make it kick ass. I know that I'll be able to do whatever job is set before me and be able to master it. I know that I have it in me. But I also know that I don't feel like I can most days. I don't feel like I will be able to do what is expected of me. I don't feel as though I'm worthy off all the opportunities being presented to me. That's my internal conflict.
I think, once I get further into this, and really get something started I'll be better, but for right now. I'm still trying to figure out what the frell is the point of a damn Thesis!