Thinking
I've been doing some thinking lately, and sometimes that can be really dangerous.
I'm still waiting to hear from AOC about the job I interviewed for. We did interview one and two in less than a week. I thought that I would hear from them by last Friday, so now I'm still waiting. I really need this job. I graduate in a month, I will no longer have my GAship, I will no longer have an income, and I haven't heard back from any of the other jobs I've put in for. This is driving me nuts. I really really want this job, I'd be really good at it.
On another note, being almost done wtih school means no more course work, no more tests, no more grades, but not the end of deadlines. Those I can handle, especially when it will be contained to the work week and my weekends will be my own. Ugh...I really hope I hear about my job tomorrow.
I was walking through walmart today and decided to see if there were any new books out by the authors I like to read. Of course there isn't - but there are supposed to be a few in June and July. anyway - the more I look at other author's work the more I want to see mine up there too. I've been playing around with writing since I was 14, it's the one thing that I dabble consistently with and really never want to give up. The down side to this is that I've lost my drive for fanfiction. I've left three stories hanging out in the wind. One that I started in 2003 and frankly, it will never get done. I look at it now and can't even remember where I was going with it. I've gotten a few reviews asking me to keep going, but how do you continue a story that you can't even fathom anymore? The one I started two years ago - I think I'm just going to delete it, there's only a handful of chapters up, and if I ever get around to it again, I can always repost it. Thankfully, the third is one that I've been playing around with since the hermionebigbang and the only thing ever posted on it was the prologue. I carry that around with me to play with every so often. But for the most part, I think I've finally reached the point that I want to play with my own characters and my own settings. Fanfiction is a great outlet, it can either stump the muse or fire her up. But for the most part, I've lost my drive to write it with any consistency.
I'm not sure if I want to write about Adain and Cassandra, or Shalimar and Aries, or maybe Gryff and Clare. Adain and Cassy are the story that I first started when I was 14 and It's the one that is the most fleshed out. Shal and Aries are interesting because Shal is an elemental and Aries is a dragon - it's primarily a paranormal fantasy with very little romance. How can there be romance when your two primary characters are not both human? Though there is a twist in that one. And Gryff and Clare - that one is the least developed, it's the plot that has been playing around in my head wanting to get fleshed out.
Well, this isn't getting my stats homework done (only 4 weeks left).