Feeling lost
Im told that I am a good person, that one day I will find someone that fits my match... that will care, that will be there, that will love me for who I am and will continue to do so... I am told that one day I will find someone capable of caring as much as I do, in the way that I do, and that perhaps one day I might even have someone fall in love with me... but I have been told that for a long time... since the beginning of high school... and I am tired of hearing about what I cant have... what I always look for, but is just beyond my reach... I just want someone to be there... someone that is as much mine as I am theirs... I want love... true love... something solid... somthing I can rely on in my life, something I know will be there when I come home from work or school... and I am told that one day I will find it, but I wish that that day were today... It may be selfish of me to want such things, as everyone desires something similar, but Im tired of waiting... ive been waiting for years, and nothing ever works for more than a few months... either they end with a happy friendship, or in a sulking hatred... nothing lasts... everything dies... it is the way of life... it is the way of fate... and I wish that I could tell fate and life to leave me be... just for once, to let a person be happy... to let them smile and enjoy life... things in the world used to be good... grant me one wish... that I can find someone and be happy... thats all I want... just a never ending smile... please.