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Everything has been so hectic lately...
First I was really sick and in the hospital. Then We have these huge inspections coming up on base so everyone is running around crazy. What that means for me is that we get to work 12 shifts and sometimes weekends. *Joy*
Then Keith was supposed to deploy to Afghanistan and then he didn't and then they said he was going to go again, and after all of the planning and crazy paperwork we did they said he is not going again... I am waiting for them to tell him he is going to deploy the week before they ship out. I thought the military would be more organized than this.
I hit my 2 year mark in the military on the 6th of this month. I can't believe it has been two years. *Half way done!* ...
*sigh*
I feel like I am missing something in my life, like I am not doing what I was supposed to do. If I don't know what it is, how am I going to fix it? How frustrating. Maybe I just need a hobby. I am starting classes again next semester but I am not excited like I was when I was going to school last year. I feel.. drained... or maybe not drained enough? I sit at work all day and stare at a computer screen and do mundane tasks a trained monkey could do. And then when I go "home" for the day I just play a game. (Right now it is Kingdom Hearts 2/ which it is pretty bad ass by the way) Same old same old.
I have friends but they are all back in Texas. I invested myself in one friend since I left Texas (Ingrid) but she got out of the military and went back to New York in January. There are not a lot of younger people around here that are on the same level as I am.
I have a boyfriend, but we just don't talk as much as I would like to. I miss just having a conversation with someone. I used to be able to sit down with my friends and talk about anything and everything with them. I miss that. I try to tell him that I want to know more about him but he will not open up. He tells me if there is anything I want to know just ask him. We have never held a conversation for more than an hour and if we do it is what you would talk to your grandmother about. Don't get me wrong, I love him, it is just I wish I was closer to him on a deeper level.
Blah. This is going to be a long Monday.
First I was really sick and in the hospital. Then We have these huge inspections coming up on base so everyone is running around crazy. What that means for me is that we get to work 12 shifts and sometimes weekends. *Joy*
Then Keith was supposed to deploy to Afghanistan and then he didn't and then they said he was going to go again, and after all of the planning and crazy paperwork we did they said he is not going again... I am waiting for them to tell him he is going to deploy the week before they ship out. I thought the military would be more organized than this.
I hit my 2 year mark in the military on the 6th of this month. I can't believe it has been two years. *Half way done!* ...
*sigh*
I feel like I am missing something in my life, like I am not doing what I was supposed to do. If I don't know what it is, how am I going to fix it? How frustrating. Maybe I just need a hobby. I am starting classes again next semester but I am not excited like I was when I was going to school last year. I feel.. drained... or maybe not drained enough? I sit at work all day and stare at a computer screen and do mundane tasks a trained monkey could do. And then when I go "home" for the day I just play a game. (Right now it is Kingdom Hearts 2/ which it is pretty bad ass by the way) Same old same old.
I have friends but they are all back in Texas. I invested myself in one friend since I left Texas (Ingrid) but she got out of the military and went back to New York in January. There are not a lot of younger people around here that are on the same level as I am.
I have a boyfriend, but we just don't talk as much as I would like to. I miss just having a conversation with someone. I used to be able to sit down with my friends and talk about anything and everything with them. I miss that. I try to tell him that I want to know more about him but he will not open up. He tells me if there is anything I want to know just ask him. We have never held a conversation for more than an hour and if we do it is what you would talk to your grandmother about. Don't get me wrong, I love him, it is just I wish I was closer to him on a deeper level.
Blah. This is going to be a long Monday.