KIDS!!!!!
Dear Journal!! Yep I'm in a bad mood. Why you ask, well I will tell you!!!
My oldest daughter is 26, good kid, went to USC college right out of high school. after 4 years there she graduated and then went right to UCSanta Cruz to attend Grad school where she has been for 4 years now. shes your typical college kid, works and goes to school, calls home when she needs $$$ over the years and it has happened quite a few times over the years. When I was working it wasn't ever a problem, since I quit my job last september tho we are on a tight budget. I still manage to help her out when I could, like for her b-day instead of a small presant for a 26 yr old adult I gave her $200.00 for her glasses. DID she get glasses NOPe said she gave it to the dentist,, Uhmm ok, sure whatever..... This is the same kid who 4 years ago came home on Thanksgiving and told me she was gay. Happy Thanksgiving mom!! Ok well we had no idea and were actually shocked. I hoped it was a phase, But here we are 4 years later. OK she is my daughter and I love her, It's not what I want for her, But it's her life, her choice, and HER Happiness!!!! But gosh freaking dammit, Don't call me on my fing phone today and tell me your getting married next saturday!! And it's a samll courthouse affiar and when you both graduate then you will have a bog wedding....(pin dropping) I was driving when she called and was like, Uhmmm Hold on. so I pulled into a driveway and asked her. Uhmmm WOWO you knw that I will be 2 days out of surgery and can't make it, Yes we knw, But we have to get married before the election. Ok well you also know that TOMORROW I and your twin sisters are getting up at 4 am to drive to santa Cruz to visit you, as we haven't seen you since June, and well you could get married tomorrow with YOUR family there. No we are getting married next week. you can come to the big wedding when we graduate!!! (Again pin dropping) OK fine congratulations, I'm happy for you, here you sister wants to talk to you.
Ok heres where I am mad. fucking little bitch!! hopw can you be so insensitive and not invite us I dont care if it's at a courthouse, we have a good relationship, we have accepted your choices in life, we have accepted your choosen partner, (even if I think she has issues) it's not my choice, Jessica is happy I see it and I just want her happy.) But to not invite us, that's just a great big slap in the face!!!!!
So tomorrow I am driving out there and I will be a good mommy and not BITCH at her and tell her I am soooooooooooooooo pissed at her. But I know me, and I just might tell her that she has hurt my feelings......
Her sister told me today that Jess is upset with me, I told her about the tummy tuck, but at the time wasn't sure about the boobs so I never said anything to her, Theresa told her I was havng them done, small lift and an implant. well that pissed her off and she thinks that if I have $$$$ to do that then I should offer to pay her dental bills, I guess she got a crown that cost alot. Wht does it always have to be about her, I raised them for the most part as a single mom and I did without for years. so for the first time I am taking care of me, and I have a hubby who is taking care of me. it's not like I have a bunch of $$$$. Helloooo kiddo we are financing this.... But really it's none of your business!!!! You have a girlfriend, you are 26!!! I NEVER once asked my parents for anything once I got married!!!
Damn damn damn!!!
Ok I don't need this stress... surgry is in 6 days and I need to remain calm and stress free.
Pre-ops were done, labs came back great, he gave me all my prescriptions, so I have them all ready to go....
Thanks for listening......
My oldest daughter is 26, good kid, went to USC college right out of high school. after 4 years there she graduated and then went right to UCSanta Cruz to attend Grad school where she has been for 4 years now. shes your typical college kid, works and goes to school, calls home when she needs $$$ over the years and it has happened quite a few times over the years. When I was working it wasn't ever a problem, since I quit my job last september tho we are on a tight budget. I still manage to help her out when I could, like for her b-day instead of a small presant for a 26 yr old adult I gave her $200.00 for her glasses. DID she get glasses NOPe said she gave it to the dentist,, Uhmm ok, sure whatever..... This is the same kid who 4 years ago came home on Thanksgiving and told me she was gay. Happy Thanksgiving mom!! Ok well we had no idea and were actually shocked. I hoped it was a phase, But here we are 4 years later. OK she is my daughter and I love her, It's not what I want for her, But it's her life, her choice, and HER Happiness!!!! But gosh freaking dammit, Don't call me on my fing phone today and tell me your getting married next saturday!! And it's a samll courthouse affiar and when you both graduate then you will have a bog wedding....(pin dropping) I was driving when she called and was like, Uhmmm Hold on. so I pulled into a driveway and asked her. Uhmmm WOWO you knw that I will be 2 days out of surgery and can't make it, Yes we knw, But we have to get married before the election. Ok well you also know that TOMORROW I and your twin sisters are getting up at 4 am to drive to santa Cruz to visit you, as we haven't seen you since June, and well you could get married tomorrow with YOUR family there. No we are getting married next week. you can come to the big wedding when we graduate!!! (Again pin dropping) OK fine congratulations, I'm happy for you, here you sister wants to talk to you.
Ok heres where I am mad. fucking little bitch!! hopw can you be so insensitive and not invite us I dont care if it's at a courthouse, we have a good relationship, we have accepted your choices in life, we have accepted your choosen partner, (even if I think she has issues) it's not my choice, Jessica is happy I see it and I just want her happy.) But to not invite us, that's just a great big slap in the face!!!!!
So tomorrow I am driving out there and I will be a good mommy and not BITCH at her and tell her I am soooooooooooooooo pissed at her. But I know me, and I just might tell her that she has hurt my feelings......
Her sister told me today that Jess is upset with me, I told her about the tummy tuck, but at the time wasn't sure about the boobs so I never said anything to her, Theresa told her I was havng them done, small lift and an implant. well that pissed her off and she thinks that if I have $$$$ to do that then I should offer to pay her dental bills, I guess she got a crown that cost alot. Wht does it always have to be about her, I raised them for the most part as a single mom and I did without for years. so for the first time I am taking care of me, and I have a hubby who is taking care of me. it's not like I have a bunch of $$$$. Helloooo kiddo we are financing this.... But really it's none of your business!!!! You have a girlfriend, you are 26!!! I NEVER once asked my parents for anything once I got married!!!
Damn damn damn!!!
Ok I don't need this stress... surgry is in 6 days and I need to remain calm and stress free.
Pre-ops were done, labs came back great, he gave me all my prescriptions, so I have them all ready to go....
Thanks for listening......