Loosing it
be honest, the past month or two in school, how have i been in your eyes?
okay. that you've gone from being soo high to dropping down to the lowest point to where I felt we became strangers & there was no drive for you to get back to a position i've always seen you in. everything that came your way dropped so hard that you didn't know what to do about it & you didn't even bother..so it just became a burden & you didn't even think of any ways to get it off from you. i've just seen you go from such a beautiful person with so much joy & love & happiness to a person i've never expected to see from the amount of time I've known you..I was thinking one day you're gonna reach your breaking point..& I think you have & now you're stuck.
Honestly, thank you. As much as it hurts to see that, your the first person I've asked and the first person to give me a real answer. And you led me to ask you, which is a good thing. I really honestly don't know what has become of me and why I am like this. You know I don't want this and I certainly don't like it. I hope that someday soon I can find myself. Find the once sure and confident me because I need her. I need her back really badly. You speak on behalf of me so well, I don't know why I sometimes have doubted that. I guess it was me trying to push everything away, everything I've cared about. What you said has been an eye opener. And its what I needed and WANTED to hear, believe it or not. I know it's weird huh. Why would anyone want to hear such negativity. Because really, it's not. It's the harsh truth that I CAN take, I CAN accept, and I needed it. I needed to know what virus I been hit with so that I can find the proper cure to remedy it.
Now what I'm hoping is that I find myself. Before it's all too late to do it. I wanna find that tough girl that I was once, because I know she's out there somewhere in the rain. I left her voluntarily, without putting up a fight I think. But somehow I have doubts about it, and I know I shouldn't. I don't want to give up. It's just, at times it feels like I should because other people are at my throat and I can't take it at all. Specially when they can't see why I'm trying my hardest to fight.
then keep that in mind..never give up. & when it seems like you should, give yourself a good reason why that situation should be let go..& if it's not worth it..it's better to leave it behind
In two months time ladies and gentlemen, I have lost everything I have worked so hard for. I have lost myself. I guess you could say that I'm on a search for a missing girl.
okay. that you've gone from being soo high to dropping down to the lowest point to where I felt we became strangers & there was no drive for you to get back to a position i've always seen you in. everything that came your way dropped so hard that you didn't know what to do about it & you didn't even bother..so it just became a burden & you didn't even think of any ways to get it off from you. i've just seen you go from such a beautiful person with so much joy & love & happiness to a person i've never expected to see from the amount of time I've known you..I was thinking one day you're gonna reach your breaking point..& I think you have & now you're stuck.
Honestly, thank you. As much as it hurts to see that, your the first person I've asked and the first person to give me a real answer. And you led me to ask you, which is a good thing. I really honestly don't know what has become of me and why I am like this. You know I don't want this and I certainly don't like it. I hope that someday soon I can find myself. Find the once sure and confident me because I need her. I need her back really badly. You speak on behalf of me so well, I don't know why I sometimes have doubted that. I guess it was me trying to push everything away, everything I've cared about. What you said has been an eye opener. And its what I needed and WANTED to hear, believe it or not. I know it's weird huh. Why would anyone want to hear such negativity. Because really, it's not. It's the harsh truth that I CAN take, I CAN accept, and I needed it. I needed to know what virus I been hit with so that I can find the proper cure to remedy it.
Now what I'm hoping is that I find myself. Before it's all too late to do it. I wanna find that tough girl that I was once, because I know she's out there somewhere in the rain. I left her voluntarily, without putting up a fight I think. But somehow I have doubts about it, and I know I shouldn't. I don't want to give up. It's just, at times it feels like I should because other people are at my throat and I can't take it at all. Specially when they can't see why I'm trying my hardest to fight.
then keep that in mind..never give up. & when it seems like you should, give yourself a good reason why that situation should be let go..& if it's not worth it..it's better to leave it behind
In two months time ladies and gentlemen, I have lost everything I have worked so hard for. I have lost myself. I guess you could say that I'm on a search for a missing girl.