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eh, I am tired and bored now. I kinda wanted to get in to the black wing raid tonight but noooooooooo veteran ppl only... BAA i say to that. eh i dont really have the energy for it any way so maybe it is a mixed blessing.
Finally got my car fixed. NOw it is working the way it should of when i bought it!!.. only cost me 70 bucks in the end so i guess it was not to bad over all. it still takes down gas alot but no lights on the dash! so that is good i think anyway.
I like my new job mostly because it has nothing to do with food. For ppl that ask me all the time "what you do" i do a type of Auto CADD through Microstation. I draw cable fiber opic and basic cable underground lines through different states off of paper maps we get from our employer and put them into a computer based CADD format. Each "state map" is called a wire center, which is spit up to different citys, towns, block streets and even corners. It is extremaly detailed and a farly complicated process to input all the data correctly to company stadards and one "corner" can very possibly take a whole work day. I am picking up on it fast however and on top of it i am now making almost 2 times what i did at uno. i think i will take home close to $1500 a month now and if i get picked up full time there i will get like 50 cent raise a year or something. dont remember the details. I work morning 7am- 3:30pm mon-fri (weekends off!) which is sweet cause i get my nights off. But is sucks because i have to wake up at 6am and lately it is killing me, i am not used to it yet but i am getting there, in time it will be no problem i am sure. And the best thing is I can finally build up my savings again from all the lost it has gone through these few years through having crappy jobs. At the moment my life seems to be on track but where this track is leading me concerns me because i dont know where it will lead.
Emotionly my head has been odd of lately, i dont really know what i have developed into but i am not really comforable in my own skin of lately. I thought it was my "life" but when i think about it, my life as been the best its been quite a few months. So i can honesly say i have no good idea what is wrong with me. It is definaly different then the usually blah feelings. I am finding myself wanting to have alone time more and more but at the same time i feel lonlely. People come over and want to do stuff and i do have fun but i can't shake this kinda of empty feeling I get in my gut, and it is effecting my mood and behavior. Ever get that? ehh.. You are surrouned by tons of ppl but feel alone and sick to your stomach. it is getting worse each day it seems. I dont want to be lonley but i have the drive to be seclueded, and when i am around ppl i fell empty and edgy at the world. Does that make any sense? eh, since when did i really make sense.
Dont know where i am going but i am on the track to somewhere... =/.
I am even losing interest in WoW. i am for the most part only raiding now but all this freaking drama is going on in the guilds and i hate drama. i go into the game to escape from drama and it is really turning me off to the game. i dont think i will leave it but i might stop to only a few times a week if things get any worse. The object that helps me heal should not cause me stress, i dont work well under stress, it hurts me in many ways that many of you can't understand.
I am very tired right now so i think i will walk around a little bit then crash early tonight, another long day tomorrow. have a good day/night all. God Bless.
- Shakuras
Finally got my car fixed. NOw it is working the way it should of when i bought it!!.. only cost me 70 bucks in the end so i guess it was not to bad over all. it still takes down gas alot but no lights on the dash! so that is good i think anyway.
I like my new job mostly because it has nothing to do with food. For ppl that ask me all the time "what you do" i do a type of Auto CADD through Microstation. I draw cable fiber opic and basic cable underground lines through different states off of paper maps we get from our employer and put them into a computer based CADD format. Each "state map" is called a wire center, which is spit up to different citys, towns, block streets and even corners. It is extremaly detailed and a farly complicated process to input all the data correctly to company stadards and one "corner" can very possibly take a whole work day. I am picking up on it fast however and on top of it i am now making almost 2 times what i did at uno. i think i will take home close to $1500 a month now and if i get picked up full time there i will get like 50 cent raise a year or something. dont remember the details. I work morning 7am- 3:30pm mon-fri (weekends off!) which is sweet cause i get my nights off. But is sucks because i have to wake up at 6am and lately it is killing me, i am not used to it yet but i am getting there, in time it will be no problem i am sure. And the best thing is I can finally build up my savings again from all the lost it has gone through these few years through having crappy jobs. At the moment my life seems to be on track but where this track is leading me concerns me because i dont know where it will lead.
Emotionly my head has been odd of lately, i dont really know what i have developed into but i am not really comforable in my own skin of lately. I thought it was my "life" but when i think about it, my life as been the best its been quite a few months. So i can honesly say i have no good idea what is wrong with me. It is definaly different then the usually blah feelings. I am finding myself wanting to have alone time more and more but at the same time i feel lonlely. People come over and want to do stuff and i do have fun but i can't shake this kinda of empty feeling I get in my gut, and it is effecting my mood and behavior. Ever get that? ehh.. You are surrouned by tons of ppl but feel alone and sick to your stomach. it is getting worse each day it seems. I dont want to be lonley but i have the drive to be seclueded, and when i am around ppl i fell empty and edgy at the world. Does that make any sense? eh, since when did i really make sense.
Dont know where i am going but i am on the track to somewhere... =/.
I am even losing interest in WoW. i am for the most part only raiding now but all this freaking drama is going on in the guilds and i hate drama. i go into the game to escape from drama and it is really turning me off to the game. i dont think i will leave it but i might stop to only a few times a week if things get any worse. The object that helps me heal should not cause me stress, i dont work well under stress, it hurts me in many ways that many of you can't understand.
I am very tired right now so i think i will walk around a little bit then crash early tonight, another long day tomorrow. have a good day/night all. God Bless.
- Shakuras