clear as day
Last week something happened that has permanently changed my actions and perceptions. Wednesday I met a healer in the Nevada desert, and our connection was so strong, on a non-sexual basis, that we fell into each other's thoughts and lives. We didn't connect initially, but we were in a close community with nowhere to go, and it happened one night that while he was taking care of me we held hands and an energy flowed through us.
It wasn't only energy. It was a complete focus on his mind, his soul, on everything about him. Everyone disapeared. I saw the course of his life and his feelings, and how he had come to be in front of me. He had a girlfriend years ago who had killed herself after he broke up with her, then blamed him in the suicide. I felt his pain and wandering; his inability to reconcile himself, as he was continually trying to achieve reconciliation through other people. It had stunted him so much that, as a person, he had only developed a strong outer-layer, but had no core. I saw his future-- not the specifics, but the overall outcome. I told him he could be at peace, and he began to cry and told me I had changed his life. I didn't know his last name.
He saw the same about me: he said things about my family he couldn't possibly have known, and described how I had felt since I was little. He told me my future and what I hadn't yet fully admitted to myself. I then understood that the route to my happiness was almost adverse to his: my reconciliation and future lay in acceptance, observation, and community, and it had only to be actualized overtime, while fulfillment, for him, could be found in himself.
The final thing is that we heard each other's thoughts, as clear as day, as if we were speaking them in conversation. Even the next morning, though we no longer read our exact thought processes, we knew what the other was communicating at any given time. I am not a spiritual person: I never believed in thought-conveyance. I now realize it isn't only about spiritualism: telepathy is a potential of the human brain.
The events of this summer are too much to recount, but I think I will post them in fragments before I move. I have very few photos, and my experiences should be written down.
It wasn't only energy. It was a complete focus on his mind, his soul, on everything about him. Everyone disapeared. I saw the course of his life and his feelings, and how he had come to be in front of me. He had a girlfriend years ago who had killed herself after he broke up with her, then blamed him in the suicide. I felt his pain and wandering; his inability to reconcile himself, as he was continually trying to achieve reconciliation through other people. It had stunted him so much that, as a person, he had only developed a strong outer-layer, but had no core. I saw his future-- not the specifics, but the overall outcome. I told him he could be at peace, and he began to cry and told me I had changed his life. I didn't know his last name.
He saw the same about me: he said things about my family he couldn't possibly have known, and described how I had felt since I was little. He told me my future and what I hadn't yet fully admitted to myself. I then understood that the route to my happiness was almost adverse to his: my reconciliation and future lay in acceptance, observation, and community, and it had only to be actualized overtime, while fulfillment, for him, could be found in himself.
The final thing is that we heard each other's thoughts, as clear as day, as if we were speaking them in conversation. Even the next morning, though we no longer read our exact thought processes, we knew what the other was communicating at any given time. I am not a spiritual person: I never believed in thought-conveyance. I now realize it isn't only about spiritualism: telepathy is a potential of the human brain.
The events of this summer are too much to recount, but I think I will post them in fragments before I move. I have very few photos, and my experiences should be written down.