gettin it out there
so far I'm loving pre-camp and ad staff so much. If it weren't for Mo and Liz, though, I might lose it. Also, Bubba and Daver, but I hardly see them since we're training.
No Joe, but he texted me for the first time since August and might visit. Given my current situation, I miss him more than ever.
No idea yet what the guys are like here besides Bubba and Daver. I have to have some close friends that are guys or I'll lose it (see above--too many girls makes me cray), even if they aren't 1,2,3 or 4. Mo can be 3 and I'll live without boys (but I won't stop thinking about them all the time).
I like our counselors, I like my unit, my cabin has its own room for me, everything is cool (the boys are a LITTLE lame), I still get my day off, I always get what I want, etc.
but...
I can't fathom not being in college, I don't have a job, I don't know what to do without Sarah and Jackie in my life, I miss my campers and friends from last year every second, and no matter what I try to do or how we try to talk about it, I still can't clear things up with Max.. on my end, at least (he's not helpful, but as Liz says "girl, you need to forget about that." I'm not ready to yet, but she's right).
It's just weird, but I do feel so strongly about this place, even without Joe and Laura and Jenna and Bryan. It's the only thing I really know; this is a place I will be in some respect for years to come.
Tomorrow I'll be in Evanston to live for one last weekend so that I might graduate, find a scarf (it is SO COLD HERE), and move the last bits of my life into the condo. For now, it's almost dinner time.
No Joe, but he texted me for the first time since August and might visit. Given my current situation, I miss him more than ever.
No idea yet what the guys are like here besides Bubba and Daver. I have to have some close friends that are guys or I'll lose it (see above--too many girls makes me cray), even if they aren't 1,2,3 or 4. Mo can be 3 and I'll live without boys (but I won't stop thinking about them all the time).
I like our counselors, I like my unit, my cabin has its own room for me, everything is cool (the boys are a LITTLE lame), I still get my day off, I always get what I want, etc.
but...
I can't fathom not being in college, I don't have a job, I don't know what to do without Sarah and Jackie in my life, I miss my campers and friends from last year every second, and no matter what I try to do or how we try to talk about it, I still can't clear things up with Max.. on my end, at least (he's not helpful, but as Liz says "girl, you need to forget about that." I'm not ready to yet, but she's right).
It's just weird, but I do feel so strongly about this place, even without Joe and Laura and Jenna and Bryan. It's the only thing I really know; this is a place I will be in some respect for years to come.
Tomorrow I'll be in Evanston to live for one last weekend so that I might graduate, find a scarf (it is SO COLD HERE), and move the last bits of my life into the condo. For now, it's almost dinner time.