i can't sleep
i really wish i was more comfortable hanging out with people alone, without anyone else. i get so insecure and nervous. i can only be alone with people that i'm used to being alone with or have known for a really, really long time. and people can tell, i know. when i am alone with someone, i'm much more reserved and quiet, but when i'm around a group, i'm pretty loud. i don't know, i guess other people set the mood and tone of conversation and i sort of rely on that and when there's only one other person, it's on both of them. bah, that's why i hate the "getting to know" process of new friends. it takes me a while. i'm fine when i'm on aim or something, just, in person, i get so awkward. it's all about familiarity though. takes some getting used to.
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i also find it very hilarious that people feel the need to post myspace bullitens professing their hatred of me to the world and they cannot even find the balls to tell me that they do. and that they won't add me on myspace, just so they can post their dumb bullitens without me seeing them. this coming from one of the people calling me childish for being a good friend. hah!
1. So, what did you do all day?: i took some naps and went to rehearsal and had dinner with elizabeth and nate. very pleasant.
2. What is the most expensive thing you've bought recently? concert tickets.
3. Last concert (or show) you attended: sigur ros, very amazing, i would go again.
4. Coolest thing you've gotten in the mail lately: college letters? that's all i've gotten for the past year.
5. Discribe your favorite artical of clothing: article? my yellow button up skirt from h&m.
6. Last video game played: harry potter gof
7. How many CDs do you have by any ONE artist or group?: i have four ted leo cds
8. What's for dinner?: i ate chicken strips and honey mustard; i doubt anyone is surprised
9. Do you have any collections?: i have a shell collection and a jones soda bottle collection and a buffy merchandise collection and i guess you could call my conglomerate of playbills a sort of collection oh and i also have a candle collection
10. What was the last board game you played?: clue, a wonderful game, i would like to play more board games. where is tj when you need him?
11. Who won?: my mom, cunning she is.
12. Do you subscribe to any magazines? yes, wired & scientific american
13. Last movie you saw at a theater: lol united 93
14. Last movie you watched at home: i watched me & you & everyone we know at wade's and then blues brothers was on tv if those count
15. Do you have any special traditions only you or your family does? we watch the women's figure skating competitions in the olympics, all the time, every time
16. What was the last thing you created: this little sketch i did in my journal
17. Are you reading any books right now?: yes, i have just started slaughterhouse-five and i promised matt that i would finish it by saturday so i need to stop sleeping and get on that
18. Do you remember your favorite book from childhood?: definitely falling up by shel silverstein
19. What do you do when you can't fall asleep?: i do surveys, like right now
20. Have you ever randomly bumped into a actor/actress/or other generally famous person on the street?: yes! i randomly bumped into tom green at zao island, it was pretty awesome oh and i also bumped into cuba gooding jr. at a news stand in l.a.
21. Are you more likely to read a book you've never read before if it's been made into a movie?: if i'm going to see a book-into-movie, i generally try to read the book first because it's usually better
22. Have you discovered what podcasts are yet? Do you have a favorite?: i know what they are but i do not listen to them
23.What is your favorite kind of food that you only get to have once a year: mmmmm house of kobe yummmm
24. What's that noise?: the mental hospital wards are on their way, run and hide!
25. Last dvd box set you bought?: scrubs
26. Are there any musical artists that you used to like but don't anymore because their style of music changed too much?: blink 182
27. Are there any covers you think are better than the original? i enjoy the shins cover of "we will become silhouettes" as much as the postal service one, if that counts because they are equal
28. What food(s) do you go to the store for ASAP when you run out?: goldfish
29. Isn't there another appropriate response for "I love you" besides "I love you, too."?: no. hahaha i think it is hilarious when someone says something else though, unless, of course, i am the one professing my love
30. Last new artist that you listened to and really liked: new? do they have to be new? cause nate's gotten me into choking victim and they're new to me
31. Last new one you hated: i recently downloaded some silversun pickups and i can't say it was my favorite thing
32. In which country do you wish you'd been born? russia
33. When was the last time you were scared shitless?: so many times that i cannot remember
34. Do you like it when old ladies refer to you as "Dear", or "Hon", or "Sugar"?: no.
35. What is your favorite physical flaw: lack of cartilage in nose tip, hands down.
36. Share random fact about yourself: i had a crush on arnold from hey, arnold! because he was so nice to everyone and he is a cartoon
37. What's the best field trip you ever went on?: michigan, french/german trip. wonderful.
38. Have you ever dressed up for Halloween at work?: no but i certainly will this coming halloween
39. Do you have any clothes that you pilfered or inherited from your parents?: yes, several coats and dresses
40. How old is "old" to you?: 40
41. What was the last free thing you've gotten?: i got a free drink today, thanks amanda from steak & shake
42. What's your favorite black and white movie?: eraserhead
43. What color would you like to bleed?: purple. i told my mom when i was younger that big bird was so different from other birds because his blood was purple and not red.
44. Do you know any Furries?: yes i do!
45. If you have a wall calender, what kind is it?: it is a buffy calendar
46. Have you ever been to a convention?: yes i have, a buffy convention
47. If you were to dress up as a musician, which one would you be?: m.i.a. cause she has cool clothes
48. Do you have a thing about ruining new stuff by personalizing?: yes.
49. Ever have those moments when you realize that you somehow just cheated death?: only a couple of times in my life has that happened
50. Does it boggle your mind?: yes, it freaks me out for about a week