what to do...
hmmm yeah so i was reading davids journal about how he got accepted into UNC, and it made me think(well it didnt take much cause ive been thinking alot about this lately anyways). I have no clue what i want to do with my life. Ideally i want to go to college, get married in the year or so after i graduate, go to graduate school if needed settle down get a job be able to support my self and spouse and then start having kids. you may think that i have it pretty planned out but i feel like i dont. i dont know what i want to be when i "grow up" i dont know what school i want to go to. i know that there are people who dont decided what they want to be until they are in college but im the type of person who has to have things planned out. i like to know whats going on and when things are happening.
i used to want to go to UNC-W but now when i think about it(nothing against the place or anyone who goes there im sure its a great school) but it just seems like a big highschool.i cant even tell you why i think that.maybe its b/c now i want to go to more prestegious (sp?) schools. now i want to go to a school like Wake or UNC. i actually havent even really thought about UNC cause i know it will be easier for me to get into Wake since my dad went there. im not even sure if i want to go there because i like them or if i feel like i have to prove myself b/c Wake is a private school and UNC is hard to get into. im not even sure if im trying to prove it to others or to myself.ugh things are so confusing.
i dont even know how many times ive changed what i want to be when i get older. i guess thats normal though. right now im looking into physical thearapy. i think it would be so rewarding to help people who are going through a physical hardship. i just dont know if i could handle the fact that i wont be able to help everyone. anyway my dad says its hard to get into that cause alot of schools dont ahve the program and alot of people are trying to get in. i dunno. he suggested that i call elon and ask about the type of schooling involved in that cause they have the program. so maybe ill get aroung to it next week. im not even sure why all this is bothering me. maybe its because my sister is getting married and starting a new life and growing up and evrything is falling into place for her and things are clear(well mostly) on where her life is going and i guess i want that too. maybe im being selfesh for wanting answers that arent there
**brighter note** my sister is coming home to night so she can go over what furniture and things my grandmother left her and to go to a spa party with me and our mother at Michaels moms. she brightens my day. i dont know how i would have gotten though alot of things w/o her there. shes my inspiration
i used to want to go to UNC-W but now when i think about it(nothing against the place or anyone who goes there im sure its a great school) but it just seems like a big highschool.i cant even tell you why i think that.maybe its b/c now i want to go to more prestegious (sp?) schools. now i want to go to a school like Wake or UNC. i actually havent even really thought about UNC cause i know it will be easier for me to get into Wake since my dad went there. im not even sure if i want to go there because i like them or if i feel like i have to prove myself b/c Wake is a private school and UNC is hard to get into. im not even sure if im trying to prove it to others or to myself.ugh things are so confusing.
i dont even know how many times ive changed what i want to be when i get older. i guess thats normal though. right now im looking into physical thearapy. i think it would be so rewarding to help people who are going through a physical hardship. i just dont know if i could handle the fact that i wont be able to help everyone. anyway my dad says its hard to get into that cause alot of schools dont ahve the program and alot of people are trying to get in. i dunno. he suggested that i call elon and ask about the type of schooling involved in that cause they have the program. so maybe ill get aroung to it next week. im not even sure why all this is bothering me. maybe its because my sister is getting married and starting a new life and growing up and evrything is falling into place for her and things are clear(well mostly) on where her life is going and i guess i want that too. maybe im being selfesh for wanting answers that arent there
**brighter note** my sister is coming home to night so she can go over what furniture and things my grandmother left her and to go to a spa party with me and our mother at Michaels moms. she brightens my day. i dont know how i would have gotten though alot of things w/o her there. shes my inspiration