is there such a thing has family?
for me? I don't know, I really don't. I don't know what to believe. I don't know if Suzy's abandoned me in hopes of starting a new life with this Russian. I don't know if anyone is really ever there. I love Kimmie and I know she's there...I don't know. I'm so uncertain about so many things. I really don't even know where to begin. I don't think I'm meant for love, friendship, etc. I think that is for people who are good. I think it's for people who are deserving and obviously I'm not. I hate to think she's gone, but I can't help but think she might be. I can't help but wonder why I'm not allowed to have anything in my life worth a damn. I don't know why I'm not allowed to. It's not fair. Oh and by the way. Fuck you Monique. Fuck you, fuck your slut girlfriend, and your cool "new' friends who don't give two shits about you.