Better than I once was.
Once upon a time I accepted being the shy, quiet kid "in the back of the class". Once upon a time I accepted being the nice guy and finishing last. Once upon a time I accepted not being popular. Once upon a time I accepted being smart. Once upon a time I accepted being very laid back and passive. Once upon a time I accepted being the person everyone turned to. Once upon a time I accepted a second rate life and catching the crumbs.
Well, you know what? All my life I've been living in the shadows of my own potential. I know I can do better for myself, but I don't. I can accept a second rate job to going with the big money, because money is the means to an end. Money buys the gas to go see friends, family, etc. It buys a house in which to raise a family. It buys what you need to get by and to enjoy life, but it doesn't buy the happiness itself. I want the happiness, not the money.
Personal life? I can do a lot better than I have. I've had a lot of great friends in the past. Friends are great, but going further, I think I can do better. I look to the past and see all the open doors I never walked through, all the unlocked doors I never opened and all the keys I never grabbed to open the unlocked doors. There are a lot of lessons I left unlearned. It sounds simple enough, right? Don't let it happen again. Nah...see, I've realized some things lately. As much as I want a real, good, lasting, permanent even relationship...you can't rush that kind of thing. Which sucks. What's more is I realize that this person isn't just going to be there, and it's not someone I'm going to have to "work on". When I meet that someone. I'll know. I'll feel it. It'll be mutual. So, all I can do is wait helplessly. That's the worst feeling of all, but if that's what it takes, then that's what it takes.
Well, you know what? All my life I've been living in the shadows of my own potential. I know I can do better for myself, but I don't. I can accept a second rate job to going with the big money, because money is the means to an end. Money buys the gas to go see friends, family, etc. It buys a house in which to raise a family. It buys what you need to get by and to enjoy life, but it doesn't buy the happiness itself. I want the happiness, not the money.
Personal life? I can do a lot better than I have. I've had a lot of great friends in the past. Friends are great, but going further, I think I can do better. I look to the past and see all the open doors I never walked through, all the unlocked doors I never opened and all the keys I never grabbed to open the unlocked doors. There are a lot of lessons I left unlearned. It sounds simple enough, right? Don't let it happen again. Nah...see, I've realized some things lately. As much as I want a real, good, lasting, permanent even relationship...you can't rush that kind of thing. Which sucks. What's more is I realize that this person isn't just going to be there, and it's not someone I'm going to have to "work on". When I meet that someone. I'll know. I'll feel it. It'll be mutual. So, all I can do is wait helplessly. That's the worst feeling of all, but if that's what it takes, then that's what it takes.