bad things i miss

[shakespeariana]

i miss being selfishly desired...i know thats very wrong, but...yeah

i miss those moments when i was the only thing on somebody's mind...

those moments when i felt worshiped.

when james was so frustrated and jeaous :-) mwahaha delicious

when it was so obvious that ed and james wanted me with a immediacy painful to behold

yezzzz harharharhar...

sigh...

so sad... why do i miss these things, why do they fill me with excitement

i think that's why men are so exciting they are capable of such passionate desire...i've never felt such passionate desire for one thing

however, the man i love is not prone to such desire...or rather if he is it is well hidden...

back to what i miss...the brighter side boys gave me tiny taste of the old stuff...

camerons obvious desire for my praise and approval and his happiness when it was given...

the way darren smacked me rather than speak to me...i understand the feeling behind it...i am fluent in manish non-talk

i also miss the singing love...i doubt i need explain...

hmph...i'm sure i'll learn to live without it, but i miss these things...and felt like saying it...but nobody to say it to...so live journal it is...

poo

by the bye, i work at ross now.