ugh
i should be excited about moving to san fran
and starting what gabe once referred to as our life...
that would sound better maybe with a together after it...or if it were pural...but i can't remember if it was either...
anyway ...yeah
maybe i just hate waiting...it feels like such a waste, me lying here on my bed doing nothing to help anybody get anywhere
but the few things i have to do i don't feel like doing...laundry, shower, get dressed, eat...self mutilation i just have no motivation
do i really want to move in with gabe?
i mean i have wanted to, but right now i don't really know if i do or i don't...
ofcourse it's pretty much too late for that to matter
i guess i do want to move in...maybe not for the rigt reasons...
i just don't know how to start a discussion w/him about my doubts and such without hurting his feelings, or making it sound like an accusation
the reason we have't discussed anythig lately is because i haven't been able to to make ayting sound right in my head...
i really just want to say goodbye to everything and everybody and start MY life, but i have loved gabe and hae anted to go with him, and proaly still do
it's probaly just normal doubts or something
i don't know, this isn't fair...why am i the ony one worrying about our relationship...we need to talk today.
and starting what gabe once referred to as our life...
that would sound better maybe with a together after it...or if it were pural...but i can't remember if it was either...
anyway ...yeah
maybe i just hate waiting...it feels like such a waste, me lying here on my bed doing nothing to help anybody get anywhere
but the few things i have to do i don't feel like doing...laundry, shower, get dressed, eat...self mutilation i just have no motivation
do i really want to move in with gabe?
i mean i have wanted to, but right now i don't really know if i do or i don't...
ofcourse it's pretty much too late for that to matter
i guess i do want to move in...maybe not for the rigt reasons...
i just don't know how to start a discussion w/him about my doubts and such without hurting his feelings, or making it sound like an accusation
the reason we have't discussed anythig lately is because i haven't been able to to make ayting sound right in my head...
i really just want to say goodbye to everything and everybody and start MY life, but i have loved gabe and hae anted to go with him, and proaly still do
it's probaly just normal doubts or something
i don't know, this isn't fair...why am i the ony one worrying about our relationship...we need to talk today.