jobless schooless..two Ls?
i have quit 2 jobs and turned down one job offer in 3 1/2 months...I suck...
i really want a job, just not an incredibly shitty one...
it seems i moved back here for absolutely no good reason...or rather to appease my parents rather than to go to school...like i was given to understand
i'm really pretty angry about it...they like fucking tricked me into coming back here
my parents have a lot of problems and my mother made me believe that she was finally going to fucking divorce my father...and i figured i should help her because it was bound to be messy
however, when i arrive i find she is as much of a push over as ever and clearly has no actual intention of ever divorcing him
she used me...my dad for reasons unknown wants me to live around here and she convinced me to move back in order to make him happy mainly
so here i am fucked over and violently pissed off, but i try to not think about it so that my situation is liveable
but it's driving me INSANE
I want despereately to go to school and start living my life!!!!!
Gabe and I HATE living apart and shuffling all my shit from his place to my place.
HIs family is awful and they don't like me much either...they disgust me almost as much as, possibly more than my family and they have a dehumanising effect on gabe.
I have gained 25 lbs in the past year 10 of them in the 4ish months i've been here!!!!!
i'm going to go on a fucking killing rampage any moment now
i really want a job, just not an incredibly shitty one...
it seems i moved back here for absolutely no good reason...or rather to appease my parents rather than to go to school...like i was given to understand
i'm really pretty angry about it...they like fucking tricked me into coming back here
my parents have a lot of problems and my mother made me believe that she was finally going to fucking divorce my father...and i figured i should help her because it was bound to be messy
however, when i arrive i find she is as much of a push over as ever and clearly has no actual intention of ever divorcing him
she used me...my dad for reasons unknown wants me to live around here and she convinced me to move back in order to make him happy mainly
so here i am fucked over and violently pissed off, but i try to not think about it so that my situation is liveable
but it's driving me INSANE
I want despereately to go to school and start living my life!!!!!
Gabe and I HATE living apart and shuffling all my shit from his place to my place.
HIs family is awful and they don't like me much either...they disgust me almost as much as, possibly more than my family and they have a dehumanising effect on gabe.
I have gained 25 lbs in the past year 10 of them in the 4ish months i've been here!!!!!
i'm going to go on a fucking killing rampage any moment now