YEARLY UPDATE
* Sorry this is so long - but i had to do the year in review thing. Do it! It's funny to see what has changed.
JANUARY
Back at Purchase, so happy to be home. Everyone is all smiles and hugs. I had a relaxing 5 day transition in the city, quite fun. Fate is such a weird thing. I'm really amazed by it sometimes.
FEBRUARY
STOP GIVING MIXED SIGNALS. but now i get it. it'll never happen and i need to get over him. NOW. i'm just really lonely and frustrated. but we talked so things should be ok.
MARCH
My best friend in the whole wide world is coming to visit me today. (Well, visit me AND interview for this crazy institution.) I am soooooooooo excited. There's a lot going on this weekend too, which is awesome. It's a good thing too- I'm starting to loose it.
APRIL
saturday i saw beckett's endgame at columbia, directed by my former suzuki/viewpoints teacher (kim wield). it was so wonderful to see her. she is probably the best teacher i've ever had. then surprisingly made it to ian's birthday masquerade, which was fun but got broken up at 2...
which basically meant me going home when i was in my drunken prime, trying to go to sleep, having the spins, and vomiting the chicken fingers i had eaten earlier that night. ( hey, only my second time this year, which i'd say is pretty good.) sunday consisted of eating brunch at the DH, sitting on the quad with friends in the sun for literally 5 hours, then back to the DH for dinner.
then we drank a lot of coconut rum and watched a lot of HBO.
it was a wonderful day.
MAY
Looking for a sublet in New York City is just about the most pain in the ass thing I've ever done. aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
Today my Lecoq teacher reemed me after I presented my final. I didn't think it was that bad but I'm pretty sure this is one of those cases where the teacher is harder on the people that they like/want to do well. So I guess I should be thankful for that. I had my final meeting with my acting teacher and she told me exactly what I needed to hear. She said I have something special and that she wants to set me up with people so that I have connections in the theatre community before I graduate. :) :) :) *deep linklater breath* this might actually happen. "Hi, my name is Caitin. I'm an actor."
JUNE
have you ever had someone leave you song lyrics on aim/blogs etc? it's subtle, but if you know the reference it really isn't at all. i got a message today like that. i was not pleased. how can someone hurt me this much again and again?
i need to make the choice to stop. i thought i had and then... ugh.
JULY
Happy 4th of July! My house has no internet! Now, I'm sure most people in our generation understand what a horror this is. This little world wide web has become a part of my daily routine, and now without it I get quite nervous. Not to mention it can be vital for looking up information, especially in nyc. My sister is here visiting for the week, that's been nice but stressful at the same time. I've been really anxious lately, I want to brake things. This isn't good. I can't wait to get drunk tonight, lately that's been my temporary solution to things.
AUGUST
aaaaaaaaaaand i'm home. everything is the same. i had no energy today. i felt like someone drugged me, and not in the good way. i'm already picking fights with the family. i don't know why i'm such a bitch to them. i belong in ny. school needs to start, sans the drama. lol- get it? but seriously, bitches will be put in their place. i need to relax.
SEPTEMBER
this year is going to be SO MUCH BETTER than last year.
a) i have an apartment with awesome roommates where i can cook my own food
(the dorms last year were depressing)
b) i have less class time, which = more sanity/ time to do work
c) we are doing CHEKHOV this semester, and let's face it, he's a pretty hot russian.
d) i'm ok with being single, and i hardly see the problem individual that consumed my thoughts last year.
e) we're doing a show! (our town)
so yeah, this year is going to be the shit.
OCTOBER
sometimes, i don't know how we do it.
NOVEMBER
i've decided to throw a party sometime in the near future becasue well, i love throwing parties and we all need to take the edge off. i want it to be themed, cause that always adds a little extra something. so ... WHAT SHOULD THE THEME BE ?!?
DECEMBER
Just finished my US History final....! I feel so much lighter. Now I just have to worry about my Lecoq farce scene and my final Chekhov scene. Totally doable. Totally. I'm excited to go home. It'll be nice to chill with family/ old school friends. And the weather will be grrrrreat! I have a lot of work to do over break though in preparation for next semester. I can't wait to school my Our Town audition.
JANUARY
Back at Purchase, so happy to be home. Everyone is all smiles and hugs. I had a relaxing 5 day transition in the city, quite fun. Fate is such a weird thing. I'm really amazed by it sometimes.
FEBRUARY
STOP GIVING MIXED SIGNALS. but now i get it. it'll never happen and i need to get over him. NOW. i'm just really lonely and frustrated. but we talked so things should be ok.
MARCH
My best friend in the whole wide world is coming to visit me today. (Well, visit me AND interview for this crazy institution.) I am soooooooooo excited. There's a lot going on this weekend too, which is awesome. It's a good thing too- I'm starting to loose it.
APRIL
saturday i saw beckett's endgame at columbia, directed by my former suzuki/viewpoints teacher (kim wield). it was so wonderful to see her. she is probably the best teacher i've ever had. then surprisingly made it to ian's birthday masquerade, which was fun but got broken up at 2...
which basically meant me going home when i was in my drunken prime, trying to go to sleep, having the spins, and vomiting the chicken fingers i had eaten earlier that night. ( hey, only my second time this year, which i'd say is pretty good.) sunday consisted of eating brunch at the DH, sitting on the quad with friends in the sun for literally 5 hours, then back to the DH for dinner.
then we drank a lot of coconut rum and watched a lot of HBO.
it was a wonderful day.
MAY
Looking for a sublet in New York City is just about the most pain in the ass thing I've ever done. aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
Today my Lecoq teacher reemed me after I presented my final. I didn't think it was that bad but I'm pretty sure this is one of those cases where the teacher is harder on the people that they like/want to do well. So I guess I should be thankful for that. I had my final meeting with my acting teacher and she told me exactly what I needed to hear. She said I have something special and that she wants to set me up with people so that I have connections in the theatre community before I graduate. :) :) :) *deep linklater breath* this might actually happen. "Hi, my name is Caitin. I'm an actor."
JUNE
have you ever had someone leave you song lyrics on aim/blogs etc? it's subtle, but if you know the reference it really isn't at all. i got a message today like that. i was not pleased. how can someone hurt me this much again and again?
i need to make the choice to stop. i thought i had and then... ugh.
JULY
Happy 4th of July! My house has no internet! Now, I'm sure most people in our generation understand what a horror this is. This little world wide web has become a part of my daily routine, and now without it I get quite nervous. Not to mention it can be vital for looking up information, especially in nyc. My sister is here visiting for the week, that's been nice but stressful at the same time. I've been really anxious lately, I want to brake things. This isn't good. I can't wait to get drunk tonight, lately that's been my temporary solution to things.
AUGUST
aaaaaaaaaaand i'm home. everything is the same. i had no energy today. i felt like someone drugged me, and not in the good way. i'm already picking fights with the family. i don't know why i'm such a bitch to them. i belong in ny. school needs to start, sans the drama. lol- get it? but seriously, bitches will be put in their place. i need to relax.
SEPTEMBER
this year is going to be SO MUCH BETTER than last year.
a) i have an apartment with awesome roommates where i can cook my own food
(the dorms last year were depressing)
b) i have less class time, which = more sanity/ time to do work
c) we are doing CHEKHOV this semester, and let's face it, he's a pretty hot russian.
d) i'm ok with being single, and i hardly see the problem individual that consumed my thoughts last year.
e) we're doing a show! (our town)
so yeah, this year is going to be the shit.
OCTOBER
sometimes, i don't know how we do it.
NOVEMBER
i've decided to throw a party sometime in the near future becasue well, i love throwing parties and we all need to take the edge off. i want it to be themed, cause that always adds a little extra something. so ... WHAT SHOULD THE THEME BE ?!?
DECEMBER
Just finished my US History final....! I feel so much lighter. Now I just have to worry about my Lecoq farce scene and my final Chekhov scene. Totally doable. Totally. I'm excited to go home. It'll be nice to chill with family/ old school friends. And the weather will be grrrrreat! I have a lot of work to do over break though in preparation for next semester. I can't wait to school my Our Town audition.