The lack of updating
I realize I haven't updated at all. I just haven't felt the urge too. I've been feeling pretty blah.
Mel and I had a good time when she came to visit. It was good to see her again and actually spend time together. We caught up on good movies and cracked up forever about Napoleon Dynamite. Loved it loved it loved it. Classic. I'm really glad she was also here to lift my spirits, help pick out my wedding dress, and officially decide on the bridesmaid dresses. Whew. Some progress there...in the wedding department that is. Dress ordered...bridesmaid dresses...soon. :)
Got news Essam and I completed step one successfully in our long process of getting him over here. I need to call tomorrow to find out what needs to be done next. Paperwork etc. etc. I'm feeling really positive that God is with us and helping. He sure is amazing. But I do have to say it still isn't easy. Although it was relieving, it still isn't me at the airport picking him up. Insha allah soon.
I suppose over these last couple days I've really realized that when I had to leave Essam...every time I leave Essam...but especially this time, I leave myself. I honestly dont feel like myself. Not sure if anyone else can tell, but I can. I know I wont feel like myself until he's here with me. Until this unrelenting stress ball is resolved. It's definitely true. When you find your soulmate, they complete you. You become a better person. And when they aren't there...you've lost yourself. Cause you never really knew yourself before you met them and everything was complete. I hope my baby can come home soon.
Mel and I had a good time when she came to visit. It was good to see her again and actually spend time together. We caught up on good movies and cracked up forever about Napoleon Dynamite. Loved it loved it loved it. Classic. I'm really glad she was also here to lift my spirits, help pick out my wedding dress, and officially decide on the bridesmaid dresses. Whew. Some progress there...in the wedding department that is. Dress ordered...bridesmaid dresses...soon. :)
Got news Essam and I completed step one successfully in our long process of getting him over here. I need to call tomorrow to find out what needs to be done next. Paperwork etc. etc. I'm feeling really positive that God is with us and helping. He sure is amazing. But I do have to say it still isn't easy. Although it was relieving, it still isn't me at the airport picking him up. Insha allah soon.
I suppose over these last couple days I've really realized that when I had to leave Essam...every time I leave Essam...but especially this time, I leave myself. I honestly dont feel like myself. Not sure if anyone else can tell, but I can. I know I wont feel like myself until he's here with me. Until this unrelenting stress ball is resolved. It's definitely true. When you find your soulmate, they complete you. You become a better person. And when they aren't there...you've lost yourself. Cause you never really knew yourself before you met them and everything was complete. I hope my baby can come home soon.