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k, newest and hopefuly last news on ayla my ex. ok , what happened this time, sunday night eric and i went to her house, and ya know how the last week she'd been telling she loves me all this getting back together stuff ya know? really really getting me excited cuz i love that girl .. for some reason, but anyways we were at her house (apartment), i decided to stay outside, she forced me in to see her room, and then after that, she stepped out and started making out with this guy, right in front of me! .. which hurt, so i left. this guy, is an ass though, he wouldn't give ayla or my friend michelle a ride home like a few days ago, cuz michelle wouldn't sleep with him. thats pretty shitty huh? but ayla i guess will sleep with him, so i guess they're together.. i'm not happy with her, or in general.. i hope this is the last shit i have to deal with with her. cuz i put every ounce of me into our relationship for the past 2.5 years.. and.. now its just .. its all total shit.. makes me want to cry. i tried so hard, she said she loved me, but she didnt' care enough to try .. at all... i hate all this.. alot.. i love that girl.. but she is not a good person.. and i try really hard to be a good person.. i just can't believe that she could do this stuff to me.. and other people ya know? its hard to grasp.. i'm just sorry for all this.. i tried so hard, ask eric , he knows.. i tried. but i guess this is it.. cuz i can't take it anymore.. i was totally played one too many times.. i don't think i deserve it any more. well, thanks for listening.. ta ta.