yep

[shakeit_fast]

i'll be working a lot more. which is good. i learned how to close today. so next week i really won't have a life. which is fine by me. work will keep me distracted from the things i keep on thinking about and the things i don't want to think about.

i'm not going to complain because there really isn't anything to complain about. i'll just say that i won't give up. no matter how many people are telling me to or how many times i think about it, i won't. because it's too important and if i lose what i have then i might as well have nothing at all. there are so many people out there that can make such a great impact. and if i give up on every single one of them then i might have missed the best thing of my life. i take people for granted too much. and i judge too much. and that won't get me anywhere in life. sometimes i wish i could really take a vacation from myself. unlikely but it's be awesome.

i really do want to see the sky purple one day and the grass orange and have a cloud outside of my window. as idiotic as that sounds it'd be nice to see things out of the ordinary.

you give me heart attacks
but i'd have them everyday if that means i'll never lose you