Terrible twenties
I hate being in my twenties. I have all these things that I want to do but I can't do them because I don't have any money, I'm not working, I'm in school full time. Its a double-edged sword. Even though I was content with my life in milwaukee, I knew deep down inside that the kind of education that I was getting, wasn't going to lead me anywhere. Now that I'm here I feel as though I am making the right decision in the long run, but look at what I've sacrificed. Would this year at MIAD been better for me? I miss the friends that I left back in wisconsin. The friends that I have here in San Antonio, I barely see. One of my friends is already a mother!!! It's getting harder and harder to relate to them. If we are in the same city I don't want livejournal to be our only source of communication. A part of me just wants to transfer to UWM, that way I could get my degree and be around people that I can connect with, but going to school out of state is too expensive. What am I going to do with this life? I hope I that in it I am making the right decisions. I don't want to be innundated by thoughts of what I could of done or been. What the hell is wrong with the world, and what the hell is my problem that I can't seem to fit in with it. Sometimes I feel like we're seperated by some sort of transparent barrier. I see and understand the things around me but there's still this unseen obsticle. My God, what the fuck am I going to do when I am finally out of school with a job!