End of the semester
finally this is the last week, now maybe i'll get some decent sleep. i am so sick of being screwed over by the instructors. i can't really say in all honesty that my education in the classroom has been all that meaningful. i'm really disappointed with micheal and fahimeh as teachers. i can respect them as artist and as painters, but when it comes to class time, i'm not really all that engaged with the work i've been producing under their guidence. i try to challenge myself, i try to take some risk, but in the end the result is just a completion of THEIR assignment. i'm not really feeling like i've done any real investigation. i understand that they have other students, but the insights that they have been giving me has not at all in any shape, way, or form contributed to my growth as an artist or a painter. i need something more. I don't know maybe they just don't know what to say to me or they're not really sure where i'm at as a painter. All i'm saying is that after an entire semester then should have some idea about me, myself as a painter enough to comment on more then just each individual piece. but i don't know, all i know is that when it comes time to grade, i better not see any bullshit grade, because if they had certain expectations for me, they should have made them more clear and and to the point instead of dragging their feet around. I'm down right serious, i'm paying a lot of money for this shit. i don't think that its fair of micheal, when i go to ask him about my grade for him to say that i'm doing well, and then for me to discover after the fact, after i return back home that i've made a C and am in danger, of losing my scholarship. if you're a competent teacher, a C is not where you want your students to be at. I understand that C is the schools requirement and if that your making that much you meeting the schools requirements, but that's not my requirement. honestly this seems like one big joke to them. I'm going to bring this up with them tommorow, during my critique.