Ever Notice.....
Ever notice how when you get one papercut, you wind up getting 5 more in the SAME FUCKING PLACE THE SAME DAY??????? My finger looks like the hamburger I just cooked up for dinner. (loverly image no?)
So... I'm cold.
Might be warmer if I could get up off my ass and close the balcony door, but I'm too comfy here on the floor wrapped up in my quilt. Amazing how the temperature can drop so fast. I prefer being cold to being too hot... at least when you're cold you can add layers.
Eh, I'm rambling on.
So, since this whole "vacation" thing with Nick is OBVIOUSLY not happening, I already talked to my mom, and tomorrow I'm going to talk to my manager. See what Laura can do for me to get me a room for two nights at the property up in Minneapolis. I thought me and Mom taking a girls shopping excursion to the Mall of America might be a fun thing to do. Besides, I've still got to get shoes for the wedding. Joy. I told my mom that I was going to be talking to Nick again tonight, just to make absolutely sure that this thing isn't going on.
Don't get me wrong, I know for a fact it isn't, I just want to hear it from him. I want him to be straight with me for once. I am perfectly well aware that he's been lying to me since we met, what... almost 5 months ago? I'm getting a bit tired of it all. I like the guy, but I don't trust him an inch. I'm giving him a chance to lay it out straight. Course I doubt he'll do that, and don't know what I'll do if he still doesn't come out with the truth, but, it's not like I'm deluding myself. I know what he is, and I know what he does, and I know he lies... at least to me.
At least I'm not going to be "wasting" my vacation, I've got my plans, slowly falling in to place. I just still don't know what I'm going to do about this wedding.
He may even be deluding himself, thinking that yea, he really is going with me to this, but we ALL know he isn't. There'll be some reason, or emergency that comes up, and he'll just blow me off like he usually does and won't call for days. I know how this is going to play out.
I dunno... maybe I'm the only one who is really seeing whats going on here. Maybe he really does think that he means to do all this crap, but something else always comes up..... I personally think it's intentional. But that's just me... trust no one and trust nothing.
So... I'm cold.
Might be warmer if I could get up off my ass and close the balcony door, but I'm too comfy here on the floor wrapped up in my quilt. Amazing how the temperature can drop so fast. I prefer being cold to being too hot... at least when you're cold you can add layers.
Eh, I'm rambling on.
So, since this whole "vacation" thing with Nick is OBVIOUSLY not happening, I already talked to my mom, and tomorrow I'm going to talk to my manager. See what Laura can do for me to get me a room for two nights at the property up in Minneapolis. I thought me and Mom taking a girls shopping excursion to the Mall of America might be a fun thing to do. Besides, I've still got to get shoes for the wedding. Joy. I told my mom that I was going to be talking to Nick again tonight, just to make absolutely sure that this thing isn't going on.
Don't get me wrong, I know for a fact it isn't, I just want to hear it from him. I want him to be straight with me for once. I am perfectly well aware that he's been lying to me since we met, what... almost 5 months ago? I'm getting a bit tired of it all. I like the guy, but I don't trust him an inch. I'm giving him a chance to lay it out straight. Course I doubt he'll do that, and don't know what I'll do if he still doesn't come out with the truth, but, it's not like I'm deluding myself. I know what he is, and I know what he does, and I know he lies... at least to me.
At least I'm not going to be "wasting" my vacation, I've got my plans, slowly falling in to place. I just still don't know what I'm going to do about this wedding.
He may even be deluding himself, thinking that yea, he really is going with me to this, but we ALL know he isn't. There'll be some reason, or emergency that comes up, and he'll just blow me off like he usually does and won't call for days. I know how this is going to play out.
I dunno... maybe I'm the only one who is really seeing whats going on here. Maybe he really does think that he means to do all this crap, but something else always comes up..... I personally think it's intentional. But that's just me... trust no one and trust nothing.