vent
Basically... im venting
I've spent my whole summer trying to spend time with "friends." Planning parties, driving all over town!!! Once again, I lost another summer with my family b/c i was chasing illusive friendships. Why do i expect people to like me. I try to have these old school fun parties with water baloons and water guns and water volley ball games and billiards and board games and snacks....
IF people actually SHOW UP... they dont stay long... theres always more important places to be. WHY BOTHER COMING IN THE FIRST PLACE!! No one cares.... I spent an hour with a couple of people filling 2 coolers of water balloons for my party... and water guns... and my dad had to build another v'ball net... and NO ONE BRINGS A BATHING SUIT TO A POOL PARTY!!! Seriously 3 people did.
So we go inside... and within 30 minutes all but 2 people are gone!! I could have done better things with my time.
No one brought food or drinks or ice or anything for the party like they were supposed to.
A couple of people did... but i could have taken those 2 people to the lake and had a lot more fun that being a people pleaser and trying to make other people's lives happy!!!!
I dont drink... I dont go out... I study and do boring stuff and I'm no fun at all... so sorry. I try to open up my home to people i care about and get to know people (i invited our waiter at dinner!!) and what do i get for it....
A BUNCH OF CRAP RSVPs and a house full of people who come hours late and stay for 5 minutes!!!
Why do i even care about these people!!!!
I try so hard to be happy... I give up... i leave in 2 weeks for Australia... screw it!
I've spent my whole summer trying to spend time with "friends." Planning parties, driving all over town!!! Once again, I lost another summer with my family b/c i was chasing illusive friendships. Why do i expect people to like me. I try to have these old school fun parties with water baloons and water guns and water volley ball games and billiards and board games and snacks....
IF people actually SHOW UP... they dont stay long... theres always more important places to be. WHY BOTHER COMING IN THE FIRST PLACE!! No one cares.... I spent an hour with a couple of people filling 2 coolers of water balloons for my party... and water guns... and my dad had to build another v'ball net... and NO ONE BRINGS A BATHING SUIT TO A POOL PARTY!!! Seriously 3 people did.
So we go inside... and within 30 minutes all but 2 people are gone!! I could have done better things with my time.
No one brought food or drinks or ice or anything for the party like they were supposed to.
A couple of people did... but i could have taken those 2 people to the lake and had a lot more fun that being a people pleaser and trying to make other people's lives happy!!!!
I dont drink... I dont go out... I study and do boring stuff and I'm no fun at all... so sorry. I try to open up my home to people i care about and get to know people (i invited our waiter at dinner!!) and what do i get for it....
A BUNCH OF CRAP RSVPs and a house full of people who come hours late and stay for 5 minutes!!!
Why do i even care about these people!!!!
I try so hard to be happy... I give up... i leave in 2 weeks for Australia... screw it!