Nishar, Tanar, and Scana Dalle
Jen wrote to me yesterday. For those of you who know....yes, THAT Jen. I don't know what to think. I haven't read the message, classmates.com won't let me since I'm not a "Gold Member." All I know is that Jen wrote to me.
......after four years of nothing. The last thing I got from her was an instant message on AIM saying "I'm moving to St. Louis, I thought you should know." She signed off before I could even reply. I didn't get a goodbye really. Things kinda....well...they just fell apart. I remember Shauna gave me a ride home that night; it was far too late to be walking around Phoenix. I left, knowing I probably wouldn't ever see any of them again. I just don't know what to think now.
We used to think our lives were so intertwined - Didi, Jen and I - we'd always be together in some form or another. I suppose we really are still together; I just got used to putting it aside, trying to forget as I moved on with my life....but they're always there. Seeing that message from her brought it all back to the surface. Not that I hadn't started to already. After all, I have been going through our story lately, re-reading it, maybe re-writing it....as much as you can rewrite history.
What should I do? I want to talk to her, that much I know. I miss her. I'm just scared of everything that this is dredging up.... No matter how much time has passed and where I am in my life now, nothing has changed. I didn't lie when I told her that....I can't change it. I never wanted to try.
......after four years of nothing. The last thing I got from her was an instant message on AIM saying "I'm moving to St. Louis, I thought you should know." She signed off before I could even reply. I didn't get a goodbye really. Things kinda....well...they just fell apart. I remember Shauna gave me a ride home that night; it was far too late to be walking around Phoenix. I left, knowing I probably wouldn't ever see any of them again. I just don't know what to think now.
We used to think our lives were so intertwined - Didi, Jen and I - we'd always be together in some form or another. I suppose we really are still together; I just got used to putting it aside, trying to forget as I moved on with my life....but they're always there. Seeing that message from her brought it all back to the surface. Not that I hadn't started to already. After all, I have been going through our story lately, re-reading it, maybe re-writing it....as much as you can rewrite history.
What should I do? I want to talk to her, that much I know. I miss her. I'm just scared of everything that this is dredging up.... No matter how much time has passed and where I am in my life now, nothing has changed. I didn't lie when I told her that....I can't change it. I never wanted to try.