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It's tuesday, and I still haven't gotten that Starbucks stuff out. I'm starting to think i might as well just drop it off when I get to town on friday. it won't get there until then anyways. I haven't even looked for a place to live yet. I really should check around, call some places before we leave and see if they'd be willing to show us around on a saturday. Also check some prices before I really get going looking around.
I think I'm starting to crack from all this crap though. I just have too much to do already, and now mike volunteered us to do some ad selling for the arts guild. we have to call a bunch of different businesses and ask them if they'd like to purchase an add for the 2005/2006 programs. Simple, eh? But we've got to wait for a certain date before we can start calling anyone...and then we've got to call this lady first to see who's already signed up, and then email this guy to to find out exactly what person we have to talk to...and THEN we can call people. It's just too much work. There's too much work now. I still haven't started sorting boxes, I've got only one possible job lead, I have no housing leads. It just doesn't seem possible that I'll be moving in two weeks. I don't feel ready.
I don't feel connected to the world anymore. It's like watching tv...or more accurately, playing some video game. I watch it happen for the most part, occasionally I can control something...fight this battle, talk to this person...but in the end, I'm swept along in the plotline, really having no affect at all. It's depressing. I woke up this morning and just didn't want to wake up. It's much happier when I'm asleep. Things seem more realistic anyways.
That's scary.
I think I'm starting to crack from all this crap though. I just have too much to do already, and now mike volunteered us to do some ad selling for the arts guild. we have to call a bunch of different businesses and ask them if they'd like to purchase an add for the 2005/2006 programs. Simple, eh? But we've got to wait for a certain date before we can start calling anyone...and then we've got to call this lady first to see who's already signed up, and then email this guy to to find out exactly what person we have to talk to...and THEN we can call people. It's just too much work. There's too much work now. I still haven't started sorting boxes, I've got only one possible job lead, I have no housing leads. It just doesn't seem possible that I'll be moving in two weeks. I don't feel ready.
I don't feel connected to the world anymore. It's like watching tv...or more accurately, playing some video game. I watch it happen for the most part, occasionally I can control something...fight this battle, talk to this person...but in the end, I'm swept along in the plotline, really having no affect at all. It's depressing. I woke up this morning and just didn't want to wake up. It's much happier when I'm asleep. Things seem more realistic anyways.
That's scary.