Dream of Acceptance
Well last night I had a blast. A small get together at Matt and Aaron's for some shots and movies then off to the club where I really got to dance.(Like I really started sweating.) I got to see an old friend from school, Brandon, which was nice. As well as some faces from school that he brought with him. I flirted with some cute guys which I'm starting to have fun with instead of just getting my hopes up that something will come out of it. And then home to go to sleep. Well I couldn't sleep the alchole mixed with the cold medicine I took before bed was making the room spin when i shut my eyes.(not fun) When i did get to sleep I was dancing Faces was open again to me and all the people my brain could fit in. Me and my favorite dance partner Aaron danced the whole time before my brain even said it was time to close Faces once again. However things happend on that dance floor in addition to dancing like me seeing 2 kinda random people from school. Vladamir Sodoma and Chris Morgan, in a gay club, i was like what the hell?!?! so of coarse i want to say hi but they pay me no mind like they don't recognize me. ???. Um bummer but i can understand things have changed alot i dress different look diffrent act differnt, well i manage to strike up convo with Vlad and by the end of the night as we are going out the door. wanting to keep in touch I ask him for his number and he gives me a "No" that in my dream said a whole lot more, NO i dont know you, no im not gay, no your not cute, no I don't accept you. Well in my dream i was hurt and i acctually woke up hurt. That last part I don't accept you sucked probably one of my bigger fears too is that people don't or wont accept me for how i am. Mind you i have over come this fear quite a bit recently. but in the end i still got to dance some more last night with aaron got to see people i havent got to see and in the end my brain was trying to make things better and had people trying to apoligize about Vlad.