thanks to all those who helped and continue help my semiselfdestrution and other random freak outs
of mine
(u know who u r)
"if i would would you"
yeah i think this last week i had one of my biggest freak outs in awhile
things werent going as planned
started stressing the fuck out
and just to add some mre fun i was having my nightmares again i full force
joy
but some friends helped me out when (dont get pissed) i truthfully didnt think anyone with the power to help me would i mean fuck man man appathtic ass almost broke down in tears and shit when they promised to help
nate thanks you as well but thats a different story not for all yet
now i've made my up my mind
moving in with an out patent program of this asylm (if anyone besides nate understands that joke i'd be amazed)
"don't be afraid to care
leave but don't leave me
look around and choose your own ground
for long you live and high you fly
and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry
and all you touch and all you see
is all your life will ever be" -pink floyd - breathe
yeah i'm going be moving ... untill everyone is ready i have to be somewhat vage about the details but thats cool i understand the reasons and all will know soon enough
but anyway im off work next thursday and friday and saturday and sunday but sunday i have alot of shit to do but i want to try hanging out with as many as possible or something those who cant cool okay whatever im just asking people i know try
on to other things now i hate altimiers
it sucks when the woman that i consider more my mom then my mother at times forgets who the fuck i am and now im feeling all fucking gulity and shit because of how much it has devlopled i shorten my visits as short as possible and i deny to look around at all the nick nacks her and my grandfater collected because all the memorys of my and knowing in the back of my head that everytime i visit my grandpas grave site i ask him just to go head a take her
its fucked up but true i would wish death to someone before altimers
yeah i know im a fucked up person but im trying
(u know who u r)
"if i would would you"
yeah i think this last week i had one of my biggest freak outs in awhile
things werent going as planned
started stressing the fuck out
and just to add some mre fun i was having my nightmares again i full force
joy
but some friends helped me out when (dont get pissed) i truthfully didnt think anyone with the power to help me would i mean fuck man man appathtic ass almost broke down in tears and shit when they promised to help
nate thanks you as well but thats a different story not for all yet
now i've made my up my mind
moving in with an out patent program of this asylm (if anyone besides nate understands that joke i'd be amazed)
"don't be afraid to care
leave but don't leave me
look around and choose your own ground
for long you live and high you fly
and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry
and all you touch and all you see
is all your life will ever be" -pink floyd - breathe
yeah i'm going be moving ... untill everyone is ready i have to be somewhat vage about the details but thats cool i understand the reasons and all will know soon enough
but anyway im off work next thursday and friday and saturday and sunday but sunday i have alot of shit to do but i want to try hanging out with as many as possible or something those who cant cool okay whatever im just asking people i know try
on to other things now i hate altimiers
it sucks when the woman that i consider more my mom then my mother at times forgets who the fuck i am and now im feeling all fucking gulity and shit because of how much it has devlopled i shorten my visits as short as possible and i deny to look around at all the nick nacks her and my grandfater collected because all the memorys of my and knowing in the back of my head that everytime i visit my grandpas grave site i ask him just to go head a take her
its fucked up but true i would wish death to someone before altimers
yeah i know im a fucked up person but im trying