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I have hit a very low point in my life right now. Between the bull shit at work, and crazy-ness at home, it's stressing me out to a point that I just want to give up on life all together. The one thing that dosen't help matters, is that I'm holding alot of feelings inside, good and bad.. The bad ones are eating me alive and stressing me out even more. The good ones I just can't express, in fear of something bad coming out of it. For example, I starting to fall in love with a good friend of mine, but I'm just holding back my feelings for her, in fear that she may not have the same feelings about me. I rather have my heart broken then loss a good friend like her.
I talked to a couple of my ex-girlfriends lately, one of them is now dating a realy nice guy, and the other is 'seeing' her ex-boyfriend again.. I'm happy to see them both doing very well, and wish them the best. It's just sad that both of them broke my heart at the wrong times. It's depressing that both of them aren't around anymore, and there's no chance in hell I'll get to see either one every again. But I'm over it, for the most part at least. I've moved on, and on the hunt for someone new... Hopefully someone who would understand me better... someone who won't stabe in the heart and twist it a few times.
Anyway, life is a bitch, then I die, I quess... In till next time, if there's a next time. :(
Why am I soo depressed, soo stressed.
Why do I feel this every day, in every way.
Sometimes I just want to cry, just woundering why.
My heart feels so empty, soo lonely.
I talked to a couple of my ex-girlfriends lately, one of them is now dating a realy nice guy, and the other is 'seeing' her ex-boyfriend again.. I'm happy to see them both doing very well, and wish them the best. It's just sad that both of them broke my heart at the wrong times. It's depressing that both of them aren't around anymore, and there's no chance in hell I'll get to see either one every again. But I'm over it, for the most part at least. I've moved on, and on the hunt for someone new... Hopefully someone who would understand me better... someone who won't stabe in the heart and twist it a few times.
Anyway, life is a bitch, then I die, I quess... In till next time, if there's a next time. :(
Why am I soo depressed, soo stressed.
Why do I feel this every day, in every way.
Sometimes I just want to cry, just woundering why.
My heart feels so empty, soo lonely.