FML
I spent most of the day flying to Florida. I'm in Florida. Tomorrow is my dad's funeral and it's going to suck. People keep staring at me and I hate being stared at more than anything. My mom keeps putting me on the spot like I owe everyone here something and it's not helping at all.
We got here just in time to get to the viewing before it was over and I think my mom expected me to cry. He doesn't look like he used to, but I guess that's to be expected when he's been very slowly decomposing for a week.
most.
awkward.
moment.
ever.
I turn around and there's a room full of people just staring at me. No one says anything. Just stares.
There's a little girl my "father" had with his wife. Apparently everyone has been telling her about me because she's 5 and knows who I am and I only met her a couple hours ago. Yet my mother being the wonderful person she is starts putting me on the spot. Little girl mentions she's cold my mom goes "Give her your jacket Agnes your sister is cold." Like wtf, I'm sorry to sound like an asshole but just because we share blood doesn't make her my sister! I'm not going to be mean to her or anything becuase she's cute. BUt when I'm here for a funeral the last thing I need is people putting pressure on me to be some perfect little social butterfly who gets along with everyone when I'm pretty much the opposite. I'm anti-social. I'm not good in crowd or with new people.
I want to go home.
We got here just in time to get to the viewing before it was over and I think my mom expected me to cry. He doesn't look like he used to, but I guess that's to be expected when he's been very slowly decomposing for a week.
most.
awkward.
moment.
ever.
I turn around and there's a room full of people just staring at me. No one says anything. Just stares.
There's a little girl my "father" had with his wife. Apparently everyone has been telling her about me because she's 5 and knows who I am and I only met her a couple hours ago. Yet my mother being the wonderful person she is starts putting me on the spot. Little girl mentions she's cold my mom goes "Give her your jacket Agnes your sister is cold." Like wtf, I'm sorry to sound like an asshole but just because we share blood doesn't make her my sister! I'm not going to be mean to her or anything becuase she's cute. BUt when I'm here for a funeral the last thing I need is people putting pressure on me to be some perfect little social butterfly who gets along with everyone when I'm pretty much the opposite. I'm anti-social. I'm not good in crowd or with new people.
I want to go home.