tis in my memory locked and you yourself shall keep the key of it.

[shaelagh]

shakespeare is wonderful. I found a bunch of books my mom had in the closet. all my poetry books and sshakespeare plays from school..I was bored so I read a bit...I miss reading...I miss the simple things...I miss being in love with william and arthur rimbaud and rilke and yeats...I miss getting lost in other people's words...other than getting lost in my mind or my own words that just seem so redundant...maybe I should start reading more and getting lost in them rather than sitting here with my own thoughts and getting more lost and more detatched from the world....I am in such an odd place...such a transition...I go with my heart and sometimes it is detrimental to me...but that is how poets are...and thats how all revolutionaries are...you just go...not thinking of consequences and you come out with a better experience and a fuller heart...I choose that anyday over being scared and dull...and numb.....I never want to be numb to anything....bad or good....I know I am a mess of thoughts and emotions and shoulda coulda's....but my passion is still there....the fire is still burning...the flame inside me will never go out...I won't let it...

I am babbling...time to watch dead poets society.

"parting is such sweet sorrow so I shall say goodnight til it be 'morrow."