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*VashAtTheTrigr22 would be steven on chris's im.*
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:39:51 PM): alex look i want you back more then anything.....and ur always saying u love me and I DO LOVE YOU but r u happy..with hannah and with just being my friend and with me living there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:40:52 PM): Steven, if you don't stop pestering me about this stuff, you're going to answers to those questions that you won't like and it will be your fault.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:40:56 PM): You are SMOTHERING me.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:00 PM): I don't think you understand that
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:08 PM): Just. Chill. The. Fuck. Out.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:13 PM): You say you want me back
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:17 PM): you say all these things
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:23 PM): and you're pushing me AWAY.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:41:37 PM): then im not trying to....u push me away too
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:58 PM): Steven, I'm trying desperately to fix this
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:41:58 PM): i just want to know...if me living there hurts u and if u really want me there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:04 PM): I want you there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:17 PM): I just don't want you in my back pocket asking me questions over agian when you KNOW the answers.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:35 PM): You're going to drive me bum fuck insane. You're making it impossble to talk to you about ANYTHING else.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:42:35 PM): maybe hearing the answers relaxes me gives me proof
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:42:47 PM): and hope
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:58 PM): And does nothing but piss me off. Gives you false hope because it makes things worse for me.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:43:19 PM): im sorry.....alex why do u think i slept over here?
kLok w0rK oRange (9:43:29 PM): I would KILL to have a NORMAL conversation with you that wasn't about all this crap
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:08 PM): Kill. Absolutely. Kill.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:36 PM): You want us back together, yet we NEVER talk about anything anymore. I can't build a relationship back up with nothing under it.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:41 PM): And that's what you're giving me.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:52 PM): The way this is going now? We're in a really deep hole.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:45:01 PM): You want me back eventually? Become a person again.
i feel sort of...used. i dunno. like i'm just filling in the time and space until she and steven get back together. am i just filling in for him? i don't know. i hope not. i really hope not. i guess i need to talk to her, but she's not online right now, and i'm not sure where my phone is...if thats really the case, if i'm just a fallback, then i'm out. thats not cool. cause thats what i'm getting right now. and i don't like it.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:39:51 PM): alex look i want you back more then anything.....and ur always saying u love me and I DO LOVE YOU but r u happy..with hannah and with just being my friend and with me living there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:40:52 PM): Steven, if you don't stop pestering me about this stuff, you're going to answers to those questions that you won't like and it will be your fault.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:40:56 PM): You are SMOTHERING me.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:00 PM): I don't think you understand that
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:08 PM): Just. Chill. The. Fuck. Out.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:13 PM): You say you want me back
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:17 PM): you say all these things
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:23 PM): and you're pushing me AWAY.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:41:37 PM): then im not trying to....u push me away too
kLok w0rK oRange (9:41:58 PM): Steven, I'm trying desperately to fix this
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:41:58 PM): i just want to know...if me living there hurts u and if u really want me there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:04 PM): I want you there
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:17 PM): I just don't want you in my back pocket asking me questions over agian when you KNOW the answers.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:35 PM): You're going to drive me bum fuck insane. You're making it impossble to talk to you about ANYTHING else.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:42:35 PM): maybe hearing the answers relaxes me gives me proof
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:42:47 PM): and hope
kLok w0rK oRange (9:42:58 PM): And does nothing but piss me off. Gives you false hope because it makes things worse for me.
VashAtTheTrigr22 (9:43:19 PM): im sorry.....alex why do u think i slept over here?
kLok w0rK oRange (9:43:29 PM): I would KILL to have a NORMAL conversation with you that wasn't about all this crap
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:08 PM): Kill. Absolutely. Kill.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:36 PM): You want us back together, yet we NEVER talk about anything anymore. I can't build a relationship back up with nothing under it.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:41 PM): And that's what you're giving me.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:44:52 PM): The way this is going now? We're in a really deep hole.
kLok w0rK oRange (9:45:01 PM): You want me back eventually? Become a person again.
i feel sort of...used. i dunno. like i'm just filling in the time and space until she and steven get back together. am i just filling in for him? i don't know. i hope not. i really hope not. i guess i need to talk to her, but she's not online right now, and i'm not sure where my phone is...if thats really the case, if i'm just a fallback, then i'm out. thats not cool. cause thats what i'm getting right now. and i don't like it.