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woah...headache. ouch. hmmm, i'm getting sick. that sucks...oh well.
damn...this is like, strange. i dunno. everything's screwy. i know loni likes him and he really likes her, last he told me...but she says she doesn't want to go out with anyone right now...she doesn't, to quote her: "want to use him to get over another guy"...w/e...he would be good for her. but i feel horrible...i mean, he broke up with alex...but at the same time i'm happy...which makes me feel even more horrible. i mean, i'm not happy that that happened, i'm happy that i can be with her...but still. god, i dunno...this is like...crazy. he's all like "i probably like loni more than alex right now." and then he dumps her and the next morning is like "i just realized i still love her." no shit steven! jesus. *shakes head* boys. but then he goes and says 'goodbye' to her? i dunno...thats like...goodbye. its so...final. and i don't know if she even heard it cause i think she was asleep...and he kept messing with her hair! jesus steven! your the one who broke up with her! i just...i...ahhh! i can't even write, type, whatever...i can't articulate what i'm thinking...i mean, considering the fact that since he stepped out that leaves just me and alex together that was sort of...i dunno...not cool. alex pointed out that i get like, really protective of her...i was pissed when steven knocked the wind out of her at the party...i know he didn't do it on purpose, but...that pissed me off. and now he's all like...ajskdfkadsfjka...if you can get that, and thats also pissing me off. she said "if he's trying to make me feel bad, he's got it." i don't like that...there's no way that she can't be sad about this...they were together for like, forever...but i just wish i could do something to make it better...make all of that just disapear.
*well, i'm willing to break myself
to shake this hell from everything i touch
i'm willing to bleed for days my... reds and grays
so you don't hurt so much
so you don't hurt so much*
i just can't sit there and watch that...it hurts to see her sad, it hurts alot. and the fact that i can't really fix it...it hurts to know he's sad too. steven needs someone...*coughlonicough*...w/e...its her decision, and if she doesn't want to...oh well...they can just be friends. i wonder if this is all finally worked out or if i'll see her tomorrow morning and she'll tell me she's back with steven. if that happens...i do have feelings too, however hard i try to ignore them...and i can't do this, this on-and-off thing..
.i can't do that anymore, its not fair to me or steven and if that happens again, she'll have to choose and then stick with her decision. this just...this all needs to be ended...figured out, fixed and ended. cause i'm really confused, both of them are, and i can't keep on like this...wondering what's going to happen next, if we're together or they're together or what. its...not cool. w/e.
love to all,
hannah.
damn...this is like, strange. i dunno. everything's screwy. i know loni likes him and he really likes her, last he told me...but she says she doesn't want to go out with anyone right now...she doesn't, to quote her: "want to use him to get over another guy"...w/e...he would be good for her. but i feel horrible...i mean, he broke up with alex...but at the same time i'm happy...which makes me feel even more horrible. i mean, i'm not happy that that happened, i'm happy that i can be with her...but still. god, i dunno...this is like...crazy. he's all like "i probably like loni more than alex right now." and then he dumps her and the next morning is like "i just realized i still love her." no shit steven! jesus. *shakes head* boys. but then he goes and says 'goodbye' to her? i dunno...thats like...goodbye. its so...final. and i don't know if she even heard it cause i think she was asleep...and he kept messing with her hair! jesus steven! your the one who broke up with her! i just...i...ahhh! i can't even write, type, whatever...i can't articulate what i'm thinking...i mean, considering the fact that since he stepped out that leaves just me and alex together that was sort of...i dunno...not cool. alex pointed out that i get like, really protective of her...i was pissed when steven knocked the wind out of her at the party...i know he didn't do it on purpose, but...that pissed me off. and now he's all like...ajskdfkadsfjka...if you can get that, and thats also pissing me off. she said "if he's trying to make me feel bad, he's got it." i don't like that...there's no way that she can't be sad about this...they were together for like, forever...but i just wish i could do something to make it better...make all of that just disapear.
*well, i'm willing to break myself
to shake this hell from everything i touch
i'm willing to bleed for days my... reds and grays
so you don't hurt so much
so you don't hurt so much*
i just can't sit there and watch that...it hurts to see her sad, it hurts alot. and the fact that i can't really fix it...it hurts to know he's sad too. steven needs someone...*coughlonicough*...w/e...its her decision, and if she doesn't want to...oh well...they can just be friends. i wonder if this is all finally worked out or if i'll see her tomorrow morning and she'll tell me she's back with steven. if that happens...i do have feelings too, however hard i try to ignore them...and i can't do this, this on-and-off thing..
.i can't do that anymore, its not fair to me or steven and if that happens again, she'll have to choose and then stick with her decision. this just...this all needs to be ended...figured out, fixed and ended. cause i'm really confused, both of them are, and i can't keep on like this...wondering what's going to happen next, if we're together or they're together or what. its...not cool. w/e.
love to all,
hannah.