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I cannot leave studio. I just... cannot do it. Our last day is a week from Friday. And I cannot fathom not being here. It hurts and sends me into a panic just remembering it.
Every now and then I have these little realizations that all amount to a giant realization of holy shit, I fucking grew up because of this place and didn't realize it. I don't have crippling fear of taking risks anymore. That went away, along with most of my self esteem problems. I feel capable, which is scary, but so exhilarating.
I just don't want it to go away.
Every now and then I have these little realizations that all amount to a giant realization of holy shit, I fucking grew up because of this place and didn't realize it. I don't have crippling fear of taking risks anymore. That went away, along with most of my self esteem problems. I feel capable, which is scary, but so exhilarating.
I just don't want it to go away.