Passing on is hard to do
A few weeks back my grandmother fell and fractured her hip. She was in a rehab facility, and while she was there she had several strokes. Yesterday, my family got a call that her kidneys were failing. So we rushed up here (she lives in another state from me) to say goodbye.
The doctors and nurses told us that they weren't sure if she would make it through the night. So we all said our goodbyes last night. Well, she made it through the night, and now I'm not sure what I want to do. It was hard for me last night to say goodbye, and now I'm not sure if I can go in and spend time with her. It's not as if, she's really aware that anyone is there and I'm not sure I can handle seeing her without losing it again.
My heaven, what am I supposed to do? Just thinking of going in there is making me tear up. I think at this point I'll just stay in the community room and kill some time. Maybe later I'll feel up to spending some more time with her.
The doctors and nurses told us that they weren't sure if she would make it through the night. So we all said our goodbyes last night. Well, she made it through the night, and now I'm not sure what I want to do. It was hard for me last night to say goodbye, and now I'm not sure if I can go in and spend time with her. It's not as if, she's really aware that anyone is there and I'm not sure I can handle seeing her without losing it again.
My heaven, what am I supposed to do? Just thinking of going in there is making me tear up. I think at this point I'll just stay in the community room and kill some time. Maybe later I'll feel up to spending some more time with her.