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So I get up to go to school this morning. I'm tired. I go in to tell my mom that I'm going to go in late. So I go lay down again. I wake up and can't seem to pull myself out of bed. I'm so tired. I feel drained. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. I was doing so good. Then all this.
It's taking it's toll on me. & my family as well. But I just didn't realize that it happened. But deep inside I kno it did and it hurts so damn bad. N I just can't seem to swallow it all. When I think about it it makes me sick to my stomache. And no my mom says I'm going to call grandpa, or I'm going to have dinner with grandma. It just doesn't seem right. It's not. She should be here. I need her.
I haven't seen my grandpa since the funeral. Is it wrong that I'm scared to? I'm scared because it will be hard on me to see him w/o her. To see an empty chair in the living room next to him with her imprint still on it. To not see the crossword puzzles open at the kitchen table waiting to be done. To not see her there at all.
I've never been through this before and I thought I was doing pretty well. But I guess I was wrong.
I miss you Grandma
It's taking it's toll on me. & my family as well. But I just didn't realize that it happened. But deep inside I kno it did and it hurts so damn bad. N I just can't seem to swallow it all. When I think about it it makes me sick to my stomache. And no my mom says I'm going to call grandpa, or I'm going to have dinner with grandma. It just doesn't seem right. It's not. She should be here. I need her.
I haven't seen my grandpa since the funeral. Is it wrong that I'm scared to? I'm scared because it will be hard on me to see him w/o her. To see an empty chair in the living room next to him with her imprint still on it. To not see the crossword puzzles open at the kitchen table waiting to be done. To not see her there at all.
I've never been through this before and I thought I was doing pretty well. But I guess I was wrong.
I miss you Grandma