Feb 01, 2005 17:59
hello again everyone! i was just thinking and i've come to realize it really sux being alone. i mean, it felt sooo good to be in love but it's been completly stripped away. it's hard to believe if i was still going out with her, this sunday (feb. 6) would have been exactly one year and i know that may not sound long to some, but for me that would have been my logest by far. she was my longest actually and that's why i miss her so much and it hurts so bad deep inside. it's like a million paper cuts in my heart that won't heal, it's just constantly being sliced day in and day out. she broke my heart cuz she found someone better than me when i always thought we were made 4 each other but i guess thats how it goes. this valintine's day is gonna suck so f*cking bad. i hate valintine's day. it's overrated. okay, well maybe me being completely alone might have something to do with me hating it, but that's beside the point. i hate being alone. i want someone to be with me so bad, but that's not the reality of the situation obviously so i'm left alone as alwayz with my music and lyrics. maybe someday i'll be happy. maybe someday i'll find someone. maybe....i guess it can't rain all the time.
-$h@dY- :x
There's no way to find out what's inside you
Until you fall into the hole
You dug for yourself while you slept here
Too young/ too selfish/ too cold
And when you find out what's been waiting
The moment you open your eyes
You'll see your true reflection
The very first time in your life
[You cannot change what's in you
This cannot be denied
You cannot change what's in you
This cannot be denied]
Cry to yourself
Nothing will help
It's too late to change what's been done
You do what you've always done best
You run
Into the hole you fell deeper
Deeper the faster you run
It won't stop until you except it
Except everything that you've done
[You cannot change what's in you
This cannot be denied
You cannot change what's in you
This cannot be denied]
Cry to yourself
Nothing will help
It's too late to change what's been done
You do what you've always done best
You run