I am Michele's hopelessness.
I'm not graduating this year.
I thought for sure I could do it, but I can't.
So in an attempt to cheer myself up, I thought I'd try to put my contacts in.
I thought for sure I could do it, but I can't.
And now I feel even worse than I did before.
I'm just afraid I wont be able to get them back out. I can envision myself in the ER waiting to see a doctor at 3am because I tried all night to get my contacts out but I can't.
I've been wearing glasses since before I could talk. I've never had anything close to my eyes, and I don't know how to let myself touch them. My reflexes are too strong.
So now I'm crying more than I was earlier.
I feel utterly hopeless. I feel like a failure in everything I do.
I just want to feel like I'm beautiful and normal and I never will because I'm too afraid to touch my eyes. And as long as people judge me and treat me differently because of my glasses, I'll never feel truly beautiful or normal. I know that will never stop as long as I'm wearing glasses.
I hate myself.
I thought for sure I could do it, but I can't.
So in an attempt to cheer myself up, I thought I'd try to put my contacts in.
I thought for sure I could do it, but I can't.
And now I feel even worse than I did before.
I'm just afraid I wont be able to get them back out. I can envision myself in the ER waiting to see a doctor at 3am because I tried all night to get my contacts out but I can't.
I've been wearing glasses since before I could talk. I've never had anything close to my eyes, and I don't know how to let myself touch them. My reflexes are too strong.
So now I'm crying more than I was earlier.
I feel utterly hopeless. I feel like a failure in everything I do.
I just want to feel like I'm beautiful and normal and I never will because I'm too afraid to touch my eyes. And as long as people judge me and treat me differently because of my glasses, I'll never feel truly beautiful or normal. I know that will never stop as long as I'm wearing glasses.
I hate myself.