seasons cretins
Hello internet folk. I hope this winter season has found you to be agreeable. The winter solstice has just passed, and I tried to read my tarot but I feel like I'm still such a novice at it and always will be. I couldn't make sense of anything... I just want some definitive answers, but I guess there really are none. Too many damn contradictions.
Anyway, I went to Seattle to visit Bec and Bridgette over Thanksgiving and fell in love a little bit. I think I can definitely see myself living there, and I've been feeling this restlessness boiling up within me for some time now. I think maybe a change of scenery is in order? But part of me feels so reckless, and maybe selfish about it. Like what would that mean? Would my friends be mad at me? Would anyone even care?
I've been seeing movies alone lately which feels fun and romantic, but sometimes I feel so lonely. Which is stupid, I mean I have a pretty solid support system but I feel like I just retreat inside of myself and won't talk about anything when I get like this.
I'm really really sad about the US criminal justice system and anger and pride and inequity and greed. I know our society is far from perfect, but I think there has got to be more than just THIS. Isn't fairness and decency the ultimate truth? I will never ever respect authority if that's what it means. Power is a manmade construct and if its not right, we need to stop it. Firearms give a person power because they can murder someone else, and if it's their "job" they can do it with impunity. It shouldn't be their job. The job is to SERVE and PROTECT. The truth is that we are all accountable to one another and need serve and protect each other. We have to help the people who need help and do it because it needs to be done and for no other reason than that. There are no profits to gain in it, because we should know better. Maybe I'll just do that with my life.
[EDIT]: Ah dammit, in my depressing haste I neglected my food update. I made spinach pie last week for the first time and it actually came out pretty good. I used frozen puffy pasty, spinach, 6 beaten eggs, about a cup of parmesan cheese, and ground up rosemary olive oil triscuits (i needed bread crumbs so I improvised and it actually worked awesome). I also used a whole yellow onion, a leek, feta, and about 5 button mushrooms for the spinach filling. Baked at about 385 F for an hour or so.
Anyway, I went to Seattle to visit Bec and Bridgette over Thanksgiving and fell in love a little bit. I think I can definitely see myself living there, and I've been feeling this restlessness boiling up within me for some time now. I think maybe a change of scenery is in order? But part of me feels so reckless, and maybe selfish about it. Like what would that mean? Would my friends be mad at me? Would anyone even care?
I've been seeing movies alone lately which feels fun and romantic, but sometimes I feel so lonely. Which is stupid, I mean I have a pretty solid support system but I feel like I just retreat inside of myself and won't talk about anything when I get like this.
I'm really really sad about the US criminal justice system and anger and pride and inequity and greed. I know our society is far from perfect, but I think there has got to be more than just THIS. Isn't fairness and decency the ultimate truth? I will never ever respect authority if that's what it means. Power is a manmade construct and if its not right, we need to stop it. Firearms give a person power because they can murder someone else, and if it's their "job" they can do it with impunity. It shouldn't be their job. The job is to SERVE and PROTECT. The truth is that we are all accountable to one another and need serve and protect each other. We have to help the people who need help and do it because it needs to be done and for no other reason than that. There are no profits to gain in it, because we should know better. Maybe I'll just do that with my life.
[EDIT]: Ah dammit, in my depressing haste I neglected my food update. I made spinach pie last week for the first time and it actually came out pretty good. I used frozen puffy pasty, spinach, 6 beaten eggs, about a cup of parmesan cheese, and ground up rosemary olive oil triscuits (i needed bread crumbs so I improvised and it actually worked awesome). I also used a whole yellow onion, a leek, feta, and about 5 button mushrooms for the spinach filling. Baked at about 385 F for an hour or so.