Natsume contemplating mode
So I've been doing some thinking lately. It's mainly in anticipation for Thursday. I get really moody and depressed around this time. So much so that I thought that treating myself to some Blenz dark hot chocolate would do myself some good. It has, but now it doesn't taste as good. I'm just not feeling it anymore. I had this crazy craving for hot chocolate but it's just not working for me. I thought I'd be satisfied but I'm still not over this depressive mood swing. Maybe I'll go get me some Cocoa Nymph sipping hot chocolate. Maybe that'll hit the spot.
Listening to some depressing tunes to help kill the time...
We Are The City - My Old Friend
The Head And The Heart - Lost In My Mind
Kourin - Aishiteru
Kosuke Atari - Natsu Yuuzora
John Powell - The Vikings Have Their Tea
Switchfoot - Let That Be Enough
I'm feeling so very Natsume right now. I'm somewhere between the Natsume not-so-very-depressed and full on depression. It's more contemplative moodiness than full on depression, to be honest. Sort of sad but not really depressed, at the same time, looking up at the clear, blue sky and just thinking sadly. I feel like walking alone in a snowy, deserted field in the middle of winter in a warm, cashmere coat and scarf, just walking aimlessly forward while the snow gently falls down on me. That's how I feel...just numb but well enough to march on in life.
It's now one day before the big day. Growing old each year always seem to get me all depressed. Back then, I'd be happy about it and celebrate it with friends. Now, everyone seems to be too busy to even care. Growing old doesn't have this same effect on me nowadays. I just want to get it over with, like waiting out for the big thunderstorm to pass through. I feel so numb, it just feels awkward every time this day rolls in. It's supposed to have this great effect on me but instead, I'm feeling the total opposite. I'm feeling frustrated and confused, and want to knock a pile of random stuff off of my desk just for fuck's sake. I don't think I'll be having cake this year.
Maybe working in the lab all of Wednesday will help me forget.
Listening to some depressing tunes to help kill the time...
We Are The City - My Old Friend
The Head And The Heart - Lost In My Mind
Kourin - Aishiteru
Kosuke Atari - Natsu Yuuzora
John Powell - The Vikings Have Their Tea
Switchfoot - Let That Be Enough
I'm feeling so very Natsume right now. I'm somewhere between the Natsume not-so-very-depressed and full on depression. It's more contemplative moodiness than full on depression, to be honest. Sort of sad but not really depressed, at the same time, looking up at the clear, blue sky and just thinking sadly. I feel like walking alone in a snowy, deserted field in the middle of winter in a warm, cashmere coat and scarf, just walking aimlessly forward while the snow gently falls down on me. That's how I feel...just numb but well enough to march on in life.
It's now one day before the big day. Growing old each year always seem to get me all depressed. Back then, I'd be happy about it and celebrate it with friends. Now, everyone seems to be too busy to even care. Growing old doesn't have this same effect on me nowadays. I just want to get it over with, like waiting out for the big thunderstorm to pass through. I feel so numb, it just feels awkward every time this day rolls in. It's supposed to have this great effect on me but instead, I'm feeling the total opposite. I'm feeling frustrated and confused, and want to knock a pile of random stuff off of my desk just for fuck's sake. I don't think I'll be having cake this year.
Maybe working in the lab all of Wednesday will help me forget.