yet another grad school rant
I'm sitting here, at school in one of the computer labs, and I am near tears going through this graduate school shit.
I have half a mind to give up and take a year off to do all these applications. Why on earth am I doing this to myself?
I do know why...I love this. I love research, I love psychology, and I want to make my life out of it. I mean, I also realize that I'm a lot more competitive than I thought...my thesis supervisor is a well-known respected clinical psychologist and researcher, I have an article pending peer review, and I'm getting some really kick-ass experience with my thesis. I have excellent references. I'm the only one who seems to think that I might not get in anywhere. I still think I might not.
But man, do they have to make it so hard? Some clinical psych programs get about 150 applicants, and take 3. Seriously, what the hell is that. The more schools I look at, the more depressed I get that I might not get in. I've e-mailed about 7 potential supervisors...3 of them have e-mailed me back saying they're not taking graduate students. What the hell am I supposed to do?
I'm not really scared of NOT getting in...I mean, I'll just try again. The only reason not getting in would bother me is that after ALL this frustration, ALL this stress, ALL this hard work....being rejected just because my GPA is a 3.6 instead of a 3.7....pisses me off.
So yeah, I'm so frustrated that I'm about ready to cry right now. I won't cry, but I sure as hell feel like it.
I have half a mind to give up and take a year off to do all these applications. Why on earth am I doing this to myself?
I do know why...I love this. I love research, I love psychology, and I want to make my life out of it. I mean, I also realize that I'm a lot more competitive than I thought...my thesis supervisor is a well-known respected clinical psychologist and researcher, I have an article pending peer review, and I'm getting some really kick-ass experience with my thesis. I have excellent references. I'm the only one who seems to think that I might not get in anywhere. I still think I might not.
But man, do they have to make it so hard? Some clinical psych programs get about 150 applicants, and take 3. Seriously, what the hell is that. The more schools I look at, the more depressed I get that I might not get in. I've e-mailed about 7 potential supervisors...3 of them have e-mailed me back saying they're not taking graduate students. What the hell am I supposed to do?
I'm not really scared of NOT getting in...I mean, I'll just try again. The only reason not getting in would bother me is that after ALL this frustration, ALL this stress, ALL this hard work....being rejected just because my GPA is a 3.6 instead of a 3.7....pisses me off.
So yeah, I'm so frustrated that I'm about ready to cry right now. I won't cry, but I sure as hell feel like it.