RL sucks so fucking much right now
God life sucks so so fucking much right now. I feel totally overwhelmed & upset. My bf who's been sick & hurting with his back problems applied for disability & was denied so we went to a lawyer to see what we can do & started the legal process you know? We went back to see his Dr & she sent him to go see a Psychiatrist because she felt he was depressed & sure enough they diagnosed him with depression. So now they have him in the behavioral unit locked up & off his pain meds to see what they can do for him. This is killing me because he keeps calling me & just asking to come home. God it hurts to tell him he has to stay & just stop fighting the drs & get treatment. My heart is breaking over this & his brother is looking to me to help him deal with Eric's problems
Just because I work in health care & have worked in behavioral centers doesn't make this process any easier for me! I honestly feel the weight of everyone's expectations on my shoulders & its a lonely ass feeling.
I wanna just sit in bed & cry. I miss him & I know he needs this but fuck when he calls he's been so sad & then switches to plain mean to me.
God give me the strength to do this..... or at least enough shots to deal with this!
Hopefully this will work out soon but holy fuck I needed to get this off my chest so fucking bad. I think I need to see someone soon to help me deal with everything thats going on before I make myself really sick with stress & everything else. I just feel really lonely & I don't even know how to describe how I am feeling anymore.
I'm gonna go off on someone soon! I can already hear someone telling me:
Well thanks for reading my rant I feel mildly better now.
Just because I work in health care & have worked in behavioral centers doesn't make this process any easier for me! I honestly feel the weight of everyone's expectations on my shoulders & its a lonely ass feeling.
I wanna just sit in bed & cry. I miss him & I know he needs this but fuck when he calls he's been so sad & then switches to plain mean to me.
God give me the strength to do this..... or at least enough shots to deal with this!
Hopefully this will work out soon but holy fuck I needed to get this off my chest so fucking bad. I think I need to see someone soon to help me deal with everything thats going on before I make myself really sick with stress & everything else. I just feel really lonely & I don't even know how to describe how I am feeling anymore.
I'm gonna go off on someone soon! I can already hear someone telling me:
Well thanks for reading my rant I feel mildly better now.