another sad-ass rant

[shadowsoldier13]

i'm not happy today
i feel down and bummed out
it's prolly hormones but i feel wiped out and emotionally drained
i'd nearly kill to have another human to speak to right now
everything feels wrong somehow

i'm between worlds
the world in my head that is long gone
and the one that i currently inhabit in the real world
i've been thinking about a lot of stuff
like the way i thought my life would go after highschool
as compared to how it's actually going
or all the people that i once called friends or associates
the people i'm no longer allowed to hang out with anymore
everything and everyone that i ever held close or dear to me in some way shape or form

everything sucks now
i keep thinking my husband's the one to blame
but i don't think that's the case
I feel like it's my own fault somehow
i'm the biggest problem in my own life
i have no more friends left over from junior high or high school to turn to
everytime i try to talk to or about certain people near mike he gets mad about it
he's trying to pick my friends for me
by forcing me to make all new friends all over again
and apparently i'm not allowed to hang out with girls or anyone that's my choice
i just cannot please everyone
especially not my husband, no matter how hard i try