a desperate online cry for help

[shadowsoldier13]

i need to get out of here
my dad's holding me prisoner
i have things i need to buy
i have money to buy them with
i just cant get out of here
i can't even call anyone to get a ride out of here
everyone i know's either working or at school right now
my phone needs minutes
my body needs to stop hurting for 10 minutes
all i can feel is pain and psychosis building up more and more
all i want to do is hurt someone so badly
i dont want to hurt myself
but i'm not given any options here
i feel sick and disturbed
everything is my fault
i dont feel like a mom right now
i feel like a victim
a monster
i just want out of here before i fuck things up badly
before i grab something heavy and hurt someone
it's all i can do not to find a sharp enuf knife to slash my own wrists right now
i need to get out of here
and there's just no way out

so if anyone cares to talk a psycho out of doing something stupid
i'm online on yahoo messenger
x0rottenwonderland0x
i just need to hear some kind of encouragement that life isnt gonna get worse
that things are gonna be ok