another venting spree, look out

[shadowsoldier13]

today has been so bloody aggravating
I doubt I can put it into the proper words to express my annoyance
for one thing, NO POT
so that's a big downer
then of course there's the fact that I'm still bi-polar as fuck
which doesn't help in the least
then of course there's the fact that I'm still stuck in this shithole called "mom & dad's"
I feel like it's got its own black hole that never lets anything leave
I tried to go take a walk down my driveway and to the stop sign like I used to do
I didn't even make it to the end of the driveway due to one of our dogs following me
so instead of feeling productive and getting exercise
I had to be paranoid that some dumb fuck was gonna haul ass down the street and hit the dog

I just want to go die somewhere so badly
and yet all I get to do instead is be here, pregnant and angry as fuck
I seriously need to find a therapist to talk to
but at the rate I'm going, it's never gonna happen
because in order to find one, it requires leaving home
and that's apparently not an option for me
don't ask why....I haven't a clue either