the 9th Circle of Bi-Polar Hell
I give up...
I haven't got the need to speak to anyone anymore
I've gotten griped at too damn much for saying the least little thing at all
so now I'm just gonna be like Silent Bob
fuck talking, it's just too much of a hassle for me
besides...there's just not much point anymore
anytime I open my mouth
someone gets mad at me
I guess it' my own fault for being this way
I call it like I see it
and it pisses people off
I'm way too honest for my own good
there's really no true place for people with this level of blatant honesty and realism
and it absolutely fucking blows!
I can't talk to anyone without someone screaming
I don't know how to talk without ranting and raving
I'd blame it on my parents...but I'm sure someone will just call it an excuse
I'd apologize but I don't know how anymore
it's bad enough that I have to be hurting all the time
I'd try to get something done about that if I trusted Doctors enuf
my head aches and hurts so badly everyday
and I'm starting to understand why
I'm trapped inside my head everyday
forced to think and think and think myself into an early grave
my head races and paces and never stops moving
never stops thinking about stuff
doesn't matter what it is
I'm starting to forget what the world really looks like
what anything even means anymore
what I'm supposed to be doing
it's all easier said than done
telling me what to do and how to do it
until the moment comes...
and then I can't remember or think straight
I'm trapped here inside my own head
sitting around in the midst of all the fucked up things that dwell here
all my thoughts that I don't want anymore
I keep trying to rip and tear and claw my way out of my skull
as if all the work will actually do some good
it's like trying to break through shatterproof glass with a wooden chair
it's just not good enuf
it's just not going to save you
I'm all out of answers and suggestions
I'm tired of talking to people and feeling like I've wasted both my time and breath
I'm tired of so many things
I just want to destroy things daily
and I realize that's not the healthiest thing to admit to wanting
but I don't even really give a fuck anymore
...I'll be happy and sound, when I'm 6 feet under ground...
I haven't got the need to speak to anyone anymore
I've gotten griped at too damn much for saying the least little thing at all
so now I'm just gonna be like Silent Bob
fuck talking, it's just too much of a hassle for me
besides...there's just not much point anymore
anytime I open my mouth
someone gets mad at me
I guess it' my own fault for being this way
I call it like I see it
and it pisses people off
I'm way too honest for my own good
there's really no true place for people with this level of blatant honesty and realism
and it absolutely fucking blows!
I can't talk to anyone without someone screaming
I don't know how to talk without ranting and raving
I'd blame it on my parents...but I'm sure someone will just call it an excuse
I'd apologize but I don't know how anymore
it's bad enough that I have to be hurting all the time
I'd try to get something done about that if I trusted Doctors enuf
my head aches and hurts so badly everyday
and I'm starting to understand why
I'm trapped inside my head everyday
forced to think and think and think myself into an early grave
my head races and paces and never stops moving
never stops thinking about stuff
doesn't matter what it is
I'm starting to forget what the world really looks like
what anything even means anymore
what I'm supposed to be doing
it's all easier said than done
telling me what to do and how to do it
until the moment comes...
and then I can't remember or think straight
I'm trapped here inside my own head
sitting around in the midst of all the fucked up things that dwell here
all my thoughts that I don't want anymore
I keep trying to rip and tear and claw my way out of my skull
as if all the work will actually do some good
it's like trying to break through shatterproof glass with a wooden chair
it's just not good enuf
it's just not going to save you
I'm all out of answers and suggestions
I'm tired of talking to people and feeling like I've wasted both my time and breath
I'm tired of so many things
I just want to destroy things daily
and I realize that's not the healthiest thing to admit to wanting
but I don't even really give a fuck anymore
...I'll be happy and sound, when I'm 6 feet under ground...