Love and Pain tend to come together...
Every time I feel that my life is getting better something else turns around and makes it bad again.
I guess it started with the fact that when I came home from school on Tuesday my dad was like sit down we need to have a talk. When he said that much I knew something was wrong. He was like I had a stroke early this morning and I can’t feel the right side of my body and I am going to go ahead and go to the hospital so I need you to stay with your Grandma tonight. He kept telling me that things would be okay and that not to worry about him. I tried not to cry in front of him so I just went ahead to my room and cried. I am so scared because he’s not old at all only in his early 40’s. My dad is probably the most important person in my life. I live with him and he is the one that provides everything I pretty much need in life. So he went to the hospital and they wanted him to stay, but he didn’t want to he wanted to go home and be alone. His blood pressure was extremely high and they weren’t really sure on which level his stroke was. I went up to my house Wednesday after school to check on him. He didn’t look good at all. He had a bunch of medicine all over the table and he said his right side is still not moving. I could tell he was scared… He told me to go ahead and stay a few more nights with my Grandma, because he really wanted to be alone with himself. He told me he just needed time to himself and it had nothing to do with him just not wanting me there… I think he is mainly scared because my grandpa started having strokes at a young age and then kept having them as he got older and now my grandpa is in a nursing home barely hanging on to his life. It is very scary to me because it is hard seeing my dad in the shape that he is in…
School is going alright I guess. My grades are decent… They aren’t the best grades, but they aren’t the worse. I just need to start putting more effort in to my work and actually studying for some of my classes.
Valentine’s effing sucked. Mainly because of all the stuff that happened to my dad, but also because I had no one to celebrate it with. I had to work anyways so its not like I could’ve done much, but o well I guess maybe I thought this year would be different.
Last weekend was pretty good though. Friday I hung out with Brianne and Vanity. We went to the mall and then went to McDonalds to get something to eat. We were out in front of the mall and ran into some guys so we hung out with them. They were from New Jersey and they were in Indiana looking into some jobs or something. They were staying at the Econo Lodge so we drove over there. They were some pretty funny people and pretty interesting also. Saturday I went to Grinders to hear Boop D/Lord Vigo and Dark Sydaz perform. I mainly went to go hear Boop D/Lord Vigo because Boop is Flip’s cousin and I know Lord Vigo from myspace. Latosha and Jennifer there so I hung out with them because we were pretty much the only 3 girls there. When I was going out to my car after the show a guy walked over to my car and he was like flirting with me. He was like you’re pretty and I wanna get to know you… Can I get your number? And I was like who are you… He was like my name is D.C. I am friends with Boop D and Vigo. I was like cool . So I gave him my number and all. Before he left he was like can I get a little kiss that way I can have something special for the night. I was like um okay. So I gave him a peck on the lips. It was cute. I was surprised when he actually called me even though it was 3:30am on Sunday morning and I had to be at work at 11am that day. But it was okay because he was being really sweet.
I guess it started with the fact that when I came home from school on Tuesday my dad was like sit down we need to have a talk. When he said that much I knew something was wrong. He was like I had a stroke early this morning and I can’t feel the right side of my body and I am going to go ahead and go to the hospital so I need you to stay with your Grandma tonight. He kept telling me that things would be okay and that not to worry about him. I tried not to cry in front of him so I just went ahead to my room and cried. I am so scared because he’s not old at all only in his early 40’s. My dad is probably the most important person in my life. I live with him and he is the one that provides everything I pretty much need in life. So he went to the hospital and they wanted him to stay, but he didn’t want to he wanted to go home and be alone. His blood pressure was extremely high and they weren’t really sure on which level his stroke was. I went up to my house Wednesday after school to check on him. He didn’t look good at all. He had a bunch of medicine all over the table and he said his right side is still not moving. I could tell he was scared… He told me to go ahead and stay a few more nights with my Grandma, because he really wanted to be alone with himself. He told me he just needed time to himself and it had nothing to do with him just not wanting me there… I think he is mainly scared because my grandpa started having strokes at a young age and then kept having them as he got older and now my grandpa is in a nursing home barely hanging on to his life. It is very scary to me because it is hard seeing my dad in the shape that he is in…
School is going alright I guess. My grades are decent… They aren’t the best grades, but they aren’t the worse. I just need to start putting more effort in to my work and actually studying for some of my classes.
Valentine’s effing sucked. Mainly because of all the stuff that happened to my dad, but also because I had no one to celebrate it with. I had to work anyways so its not like I could’ve done much, but o well I guess maybe I thought this year would be different.
Last weekend was pretty good though. Friday I hung out with Brianne and Vanity. We went to the mall and then went to McDonalds to get something to eat. We were out in front of the mall and ran into some guys so we hung out with them. They were from New Jersey and they were in Indiana looking into some jobs or something. They were staying at the Econo Lodge so we drove over there. They were some pretty funny people and pretty interesting also. Saturday I went to Grinders to hear Boop D/Lord Vigo and Dark Sydaz perform. I mainly went to go hear Boop D/Lord Vigo because Boop is Flip’s cousin and I know Lord Vigo from myspace. Latosha and Jennifer there so I hung out with them because we were pretty much the only 3 girls there. When I was going out to my car after the show a guy walked over to my car and he was like flirting with me. He was like you’re pretty and I wanna get to know you… Can I get your number? And I was like who are you… He was like my name is D.C. I am friends with Boop D and Vigo. I was like cool . So I gave him my number and all. Before he left he was like can I get a little kiss that way I can have something special for the night. I was like um okay. So I gave him a peck on the lips. It was cute. I was surprised when he actually called me even though it was 3:30am on Sunday morning and I had to be at work at 11am that day. But it was okay because he was being really sweet.